“In order to keep us going, it is enough to be grateful for the next breath, because it’s not to be taken for granted that I can take another breath.”–David Steindl-Rast
Some 25 years ago, I was invited to a small gathering with a psychic who had flown into Connecticut from California. I went along, not because I’d ever heard of this psychic (in fact, I can’t remember her name) but because my friend invited me and because, well, turning down an adventure is not my style.
The psychic went around the room, revealing to each person what she saw for their future.
When she came to me, she said, “Well, this is interesting.”
I waited with great anticipation. After all, I’d just finished a six-month training in rebirthing and was not exactly sure whether to continue traveling, whether to write a book, where I should go next to set up my mobile writing office.
Instead of answering any of those burning questions, she pronounced with great certainty, “Your next purpose in life is motherhood.”
I nearly fell off the chair. When we left the small home gathering, before we even got in the car, I said to my friend, “Well, that psychic was full of dookie. I’m 36. I’m not married. What a load.”
Not three weeks later, I discovered that indeed I was pregnant.
My daughter, Tasman McKay Grout, was born October 8, 1993 with wild light running through every cell. She landed here on planet earth with indiscriminate and generous love. For the past 25 years, she has been my world–my heart, my reason, my best friend. And as proud as I am of writing a bestseller, being Taz’s mom is by far the best thing I’ve ever done.
Paraphrasing the old “God never gives you more than you can handle,” I used to say “God had little faith in me because he gave me the perfect child.” She was beautiful, brilliant. Goodness for her came naturally. She gave 100 percent every day. I dedicated my last book, Art and Soul, Reloaded, to “Taz, the most creative person I know.”
Last Sunday, six days after her 25th birthday, Taz and I were texting back and forth about going to see “A Star is Born.” We had returned the day before from my mother’s funeral and because I had to be gone on her birthday (to make arrangements for mom), we had every intention of making up for lost time.
It had been 30 minutes since her last text, so I called her, just a casual “The movie’s at 1 and 3. Let’s go to breakfast first.”
Next thing I know, a Lawrence policeman was at my door. Taz, he said, is at the emergency room. Paramedics are getting ready to life flight her to Kansas City.
For the past week, I’ve been with her body at KU Med, learning about aneurisms, learning about organ donation (no surprise she’d checked the box at DMV), experiencing the insane kindness of total strangers.
As you can imagine, I’m still processing all of this, trying to focus on the love we shared and the amazing 25 years we did have. But I won’t lie. This last week has sucked. Even though I know Taz is not a body (yes, an old Course in Miracles standard) I’m still reeling with grief.
The other thing that psychic told me is that Taz would become a great spiritual leader. The list of lives she has already affected in her short two and a half decades is immense.
The t-shirt the paramedics cut off her body to start CPR was emblazoned with giant letters “V-O-T-E.” In her career, she worked as a match specialist with the Spanish-speaking families in Big Brothers/Big Sisters. Everything she did was some variation of this theme: love fiercely and do quiet, kind things for the underdog.
And while I’m not totally sure what’s coming next for me, someone pointed out at the hospital, that the Course in Miracles book I’m writing (now with Taz’s help) happens to be my 20th book and it’s coming out in 2020. That’s 222, the sacred number Taz and I shared.
I’ll close for now. But please know that I love you all. Taz loves you all. And you haven’t heard the last from either of us.
Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.
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Send huge love and healing xxx
You and Taz continue, even in your grief, to inspire and expand this earthly experience for so many. Love flows to both of you from me.
Truly heart broken, feeling deeply your loss of both your mother and daughter. Words can hardly describe; sending virtual light and love ❤️ May a deeply penetrating peace blanket your sweet soul 😘
Truly saddened. We can understand what the feeling must be like. But for her sake try to remember the good times you have had with her . She will be there with all of us on spirit. And she would definitely not like to see her dear mum sad. Heartfelt condolences from all your fans. May God give you the strength to recocer from this immense grief. We all lovw you. Both of you will be in our prayers.
Love and many prayers to you Pam! Thinking of you and sending many hugs your way! God bless you dear soul!! ❤️
So very sorry for your loss, Pam 😔 – all my thoughts and prayers for you and your family 🙏❤
I cannot even begin to say something meaningful. She will be with you–always. Always. The 222 only confirms what we know.
I stopped after reading this and tried to imagine….my 30 year old, my 38 year old, my grands 8, 2, 1 ……
Peace Jane
We love you and Taz so much, Pam. Deepest of love to you both.
Pam, I am so very, very sorry for your loss. It is a terrible thing to lose anyone, but a daughter, in particular, is heartbreaking.
Sending all the love I have your way.
Oh Pam…you and Taz are in my prayers…I KNOW there is Divine Purpose for this…sending much love and hugs from one of your biggest fans….XOXOX!
I cannot even begin to say something meaningful.
She will be with you–always. Always.
The 222 only confirms what we know.
I stopped after reading this and tried to imagine….my 30 year old, my 38 year old, my grands 8, 2, 1 ……
Peace
Jane
Dear Pam,
Sending you and Taz much love, and positive energy for a good outcome. I’ll be keeping you both in my thoughts, and prayers.
Love,
Kat
oh pam. you have so much grace in the face of loss. sending you total light beams of love and sharing some of your daughter’s beautiful spirit today.
Jade 404-966-5148 Sent from Jade’s iPhone
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Sending you a big hug. To lose your mother and daughter so closely together is heartbreaking. Many healing thoughts and prayers to you and your family. I’m so sorry!
I cannot imagine the depth, pain and profundity of what is happening right now for you Pam. Sending blessings and love your way <3
I have no words, and nothing I could ever say would be adequate to soothe your overwhelming loss and grief. I was so excited to open your email, so happy as I read along, and so completely devastated for you that I can’t breathe either. Sending you all of the love I have Pam. She is with you always. You were both blessed beyond measure. 💔
Well said. I’m devestated also and send Pam love & peace.
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Dear Pam, I am so sorry about the loss of your daughter Taz. Sending you prayers for peace and continued memories that will make you smile at some point. I am also wishing for you strength at this very difficult time. May God bless you and the soul of your wonderful daughter. Love and peace, Jeanne
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Dear, Dear Pam,
Holding you and Taz in such loving light. Yes, we are not our bodies, and yes, knowing such profound love as you have experienced with your daughter does never ever end…but we are in these human bodies and therefore we experience a human physical missing. Be so gentle with yourself during this tender time.
Suzi
Sending love and prayers and anything else I can muster.
Sending you love Pam. So sorry for your loss. She sounds like an amazing girl.
Pam, I’m so sorry for your loss. RIP Taz❤️🙏. Sending you love and hugs!
Pam, my heart goes out to you, you were so close. Big huge hugs
Helen xx
Pam – may the strength and love that you share with all your followers everyday, hold you up during this very difficult time. Sending healing white light and lots of love to you both and praying for a positive outcome for you and Taz!!
Sending vibrations of healing to Taz and strength to Pam!
Sending prayers your way. You both touched so many lives – that’s the life GOD intended for you. YOU did not waste a minute of the precious gift you were given.
I’m so very sorry to hear that, Pam. You and your daughter are in my prayers. Hugs.
My heart goes out to you, Pam.
Holding you in light.
Dear Pam – sending you so much love and prayers. I’m so glad for you that you were blessed with Tasman, and my heart just aches for you now…
Oh my heart hurts for you! You both have inspired me… I’ve read and re-read your books and stories so many times. Praying for you, your family, and your friends. Sending love to you!
psgrout posted: ““In order to keep us going, it is enough to be grateful for the next breath, because it’s not to be taken for granted that I can take another breath.”–David Steindl-Rast Some 25 years ago, I was invited to a small gathering with a psychic who had flown “
Couldn’t believe when I started to read your post.. but much much love to you n Taz…and yes I agree she’ll always be by your side.
Gosh, my friend, you’ve had a heck of a week. Blessings for peace and comfort, keeping the big picture in mind, as you do so well. Your extended tribe is here for you. (((HUGS)))
Dear Pam, So sorry for your loss. I can’t begin to imagine how you feel. May you find comfort in the love you shared with Taz.
I am so sorry. Taz is a precious soul. You were blessed in every way.
I am so sorry for your loss. I know she is still with you but the physical loss is immense. I am reading this with tears. Wishing you a peace that passes human understanding.
Pam, Thinking about you and Taz. Sending hugs. Love you both.
Dearest Pam, as the mother of a beloved daughter of almost the same age as your Taz, I send you love support light and everything in between including rage. Holding you and Taz close. xo Katherine Turpin
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Life just is not fair. This is so so sad.
Cyber hugs
Xxx
Words fail. Sending Love.
My heart goes out to you as I sit here with tears in my eyes for you. I have no words but sending prayers, love and hugs your way.
Omg! I’m so sorry! Why this had to happen to you out of all people! Why Why Why? Sending you love and light to get through this. I know nothing can be said to make you feel better. Sending you much love, more blessings, and best wishes !
My heart is breaking for you Pam. I hold you in my heart. May our love for you help you in some small way to soften your loss .
I am so sorry to read about what has happened to your daughter. With much love and light, Jaclyn
My deepest sympathy to you in Your loss and my hope for blessings in your continued journey in seeking miracles and inspiring
others
Omg Pam my heart sank when I read this! Peace and healing thoughts to you both!
Much love to you Pam. Thank you for everything. 💕💕💕
I am so sorry to read this…sending love and strength.
I was born October 8, 1963.
I have been dead 6 times and continue to live here.
I’m okay to due but every time I’m given a choice, I choose to live. I told one group of light beings that I would live to 100. I told another group that I’d like to stay in this experience called “Evana” (my name).
As I get older, I’ve asked the Angels not to be tested anymore.
I believe in other worlds, other planes of existence and afterlife beings. But I know this is the only life for Evana, and I’d like to stay here for a good long while as this person.
I still have much to do even if I don’t know what that is right now.
Pam Grout, Please know that your beloved daughter shares the same choices I do – even though I’m born on the same date, 30 years earlier.
Love to her and all my October 8th family.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Dear Pam, May all the love you give be returned to you in soft and gentle waves. May all
the love you and your daughter shared be multiplied and showered upon you through these sad days that you may find a way to keep going and continue the work you both have begun. With love always. Christine xxxx
Very beautifully said.
Loving you Pam. Loving Taz.
Have an amazing day!!!! My best, Vilma
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Dearest Pam, I am so sorry to hear of your precious Daughter Taz’s dying. Sending you much love as you continue to make your way through this bone crushing loss.
Dear Pam, I was so saddened to read this. I lost a dear friend to an aneurysm 8 years ago & the suddenness of it is shocking. May peace and love be with you and your darling daughter. Send love & hugs across the pond. Tracey xx
Peace and love to you and Taz. My heart is with you.
I am so sorry. You were so blessed to of had this sweet soul with you for 25 years. Celebrating that.
I hold you tight….
I just had to reach out and tell you that my thoughts and prayers are with you. You have my deepest condolences. I admire your strength and bravery but I cannot imagine the pain you are feeling inside. I have no words except may God protect you and fill you with love and peace. With my deepest sympathy,Jean Wargo
Sending you so much love and light in your time of grief.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Pam, I am so very sorry, crying as I’m reading this. I’m hoping you have pleasant dreams and receive wonderful signs from your daughter and mother. Hugs
my heart goes out to you. sending so much love and air hugs your way. xx
Oh Pam I am so heartfully sorry for your loss. Love to you and to Taz who knows so much more now then any of us here on this side do. Blessings
Speechless 😶 But not without my spiritual voice which is crying out loud and clear to be a blessing ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Dear Pam, I am beaming love to you, and more love. May you and Taz travel on in this next chapter, and may grief bring you ever closer to truth. May love hold you. With everything I’ve got, Marilyn
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Enveloping you with peace and love.
My heart joins thousands of others in love and support for you. Taz’s spirit expands to touch us from a higher plane.
Dear Pam, my heart goes out to you. Sending much love to you both <3
OMG! Sending you and everyone else Love and Light! I don’t even know you girls personally but know that you are needed here and me as a “fan” love both of you!
Oh Pam, may I echo what has been posted by others. I am so, so sorry for your loss. I have loved all your posts about Taz. Her spirit, her love has shown through over and over. Please know, we’re all hurting for you, we’re all sending you so much love, thank you for sharing Taz with us. Carrying your heart …
Beautiful. ❤ So very sorry.
I was so sorry to hear this Pam. But I admire your courage to share it with
us. And I’ll take the opportunity to thank you for all the light and wisdom you
share with the world and will continue to share with the world.
I wish you much love and much peace.
So much love to you lovely Pam, so sorry for the loss of beautiful Taz from this earthly plane, another angel dancing in heaven. Sending you love and prayers xxx
Dear Pam, Your emails means a lot to me, and have helped me through some dark times. I can empathise with you because I would be nothing without my lovely, disabled little girl. I’m sure that I and the 100s of 1000s people you helped with your books and emails, will be sending you all our love. With love and concern,Monica Sent from my Samsung Galaxy smartphone.
I am so sorry, Pam. Words fail me now. Please know you are in my thoughts. Peace and love… mn
Dearest Pam;
You and your beautiful daughter are amazing in every way. I am so grateful to you for the uplifting ways that you share your journey and apply all of your insights and teachings so very directly in your life. You are a beacon of light in our complex world. Thank you for showing us so many ways to see things differently and behold the miracles that are all around us. Even in this time of the loss of your mother AND your daughter, you inspire me. And the response is always love . . . and I am pouring out my love to you and all mothers and daughters.
I had to read this several times before it could sink in. I am heartbroken for you. I believe your mum went first to be there to greet Taz. Know that thousands of strangers are sharing your grief & sending love and light to you, now and always.
“Life is not measured by the breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away”.
RIP Taz 🙏
Pam, Im sending love and light to you. I have been worried, I felt something wasnt right.
I am so sorry for your pain, I know Taz will always be near you as well as your Mom. You have some extra special Angels sending love and support as well as all of us souls out here that you help with your beautiful words and teachings.
Take care of yourself, sending you hugs and love from one Mom to another.
Sharon
I had to re read this 2 more times. I just could not believe what I was reading. I am so sorry ~ it is hard to lose your Mom ~ I can’t in my wildest dreams imagine anything worse than losing your precious child. I am sending you love and hugs. There are no words to comfort you only time can heal that much loss.
Dear Pam,
I am sure you are overwhelmed with emails but I will add this one to your stack of support mail-
Taz is indeed a beautiful angel on earth, as you are, and we are so blessed to have you both.
I also have two beautiful daughters, one whose 27th birthday was October 18, so I am feeling your pain (comparatively a little, I am sure).
I am so happy you have such amazing insights on life and foreverness, as that’s what will get you through this time.
Keeping you, Taz and your mom in my heart.
Love, always, with many thanks with all you do for us,
Krista
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Sending you and your family love and light, Pam 💓
Pam,
Even in grief your light shines Bright! You are a role model for all humans. May the love you have poured out to others be returned 100 fold and give you strength and comfort in the days ahead.
Thoughts and prayers xxx Anne
Sending love & light your way. May all the love, hope, faith and guidance you have given others over the years come back ten-fold, envelop you, and propel you forward as you may need.
Pam,
So sorry, God bless you.
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Words are useless. ♥♥♥ She loves you still and always.
Thank you and your wonderful daughter for donating her organs! My son received a life saving kidney this past December. With love and respect, Shari
Pam, My heart is broken. It’s as if I lost the daughter I never had. And yet, you’re right. Taz, your mother, my father and all our loved ones are right here with us cheering us on and helping us through our little and big problems. I’ll send Reiki to you for your comfort and to find a path through two huge blows almost at once. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable.
There is nothing to say except I’m so, so sorry. Sending love and light.
Sending you the biggest hug. I am sure I can speak for all of your followers and say that we’re all with you, thinking of you, and hoping to lift you up with our love. Sophia.
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I am so deeply sorry for your loss Pam. I can’t even imagine. Huge Love. Susan Barker
So sorry to hear this it is profoundly sad. I am touched by your spirit and grace at the unimaginably difficult time. I am sure the world via you will benefit from the legacy of her life xx
WOW! I cannot even imagine the grief that you are feeling as a mom!! Loving thoughts, and prayers are on their way to you!!
My deepest deepest condolences Pam dearest ❤️🦋🍀.
You’ve been an inspiration to me, being a single mom w an 18 yr old daughter with Autism. Your books have been simple, profound and helpful. I gave to 50 friends your Thank and Grow Rich a few Christmases ago 🍀🦋
I’m sorry. I thank you and Taz.
God Speed Taz 🦋
Patty and Julia
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Oh dear god.
No words.
And all words that convey love, love, LOVE.
Sending all love your way.
Damn…
When I was at a cremation ceremony in Bali, I was aghast at seeing a woman’s body fall out of a flaming red paper mache bull that her body was placed in on the entourage through the village to the cemetery. When a Balinese man who was the grandson of the grandmother saw the shock on my face at seeing his grandmothers hair and face go up in flames as it feel towards me, he placed his hand gently on my shoulder and turned me toward his beautiful smiling face and shouted over the loudly cracking flames:
“ NO WORRIES!
CELEBRATION!
TRANSFORMATION!!!
In a second his loving smile transformed my horror to a warm smile of knowing as well.
Steve
Pam I’m sending much love your way.
I lost my 33yearold beloved son Scott to a hit and run driver. He has 2 young kids.
I have sought solace in A C I M and the amazing Neil Donald Walch.
Pam I am so so sorry and I empathise and we have to hold on to our beliefs it’s the only way.
Love
Brian
I am so so sorry .. !
From your deep admirer .. Del
PEACE
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. With peace and love, Ashley
Pam: you’ve been such an enormous beacon for many of us. You’ve taught us how and why to see things differently and to make our lives better. I hope that we can give you some support, some light, at what has got to be a dark time. My hope is that you have people to whom you can turn to help this hurt just a little less. Know that you, Taz, and your mother are in our thoughts, and that we are holding healing space for all of you.
Losing your mom and your daughter around the same time…..and in such a shocking way with your daughter…. sending love and prayers. These words do not express how much I feel, but I hope you know the extent of how much my words are trying to say.
Oh my F.P.! Pam, I can’t even…I was still processing that you said you lost your mom (and so close after your dad), and then the punch in the gut of Taz. I read it a few times, not sure if you were actually saying she was “gone”. I know you will find some gifts from this crazy year – your superpower! – but my heart is broken for you. I have been obsessed with 222 ever since I first read about Taz using that for all her answers. Now it will have an extra special meaning for me, each time I see it – which is A LOT.
Hugging you from SW Colorado!
xox
Pamela Joy
Loving You 💔
Even though we have never actually met, I have read your books — some several times. You feel like family. I teared up as I read your post about your daughter. It was a great welling up of love, and I’m sending it from my heart to yours. Shanti, Suzanne
Dear Pam, My heart is breaking for you. I wish I could wrap you in white light and take away your pain. I know at a higher level, that we don’t die. She is with you still, just vibrating at an even higher level and experiencing the infinite, “All that is” or “Heaven”. But man oh man, life in the physical world is sometimes almost unbearably painful. You have helped me and so many others to experience the FP. I will hold you both in my heart and pray for miracles to unfold for you in unexpected ways. Sending love.
Lauren
Sending you hugs, love, and prayers…
Sad and heartbroken and stunned and sending love and light
Oh, Pam. Indeed our next breath is not guaranteed on this earth. I send you my most heartfelt healing light and love for your daughter Taz, and I claim complete healing on her behalf. Please keep us posted! With love, Sheryl
My heart is with you. My only daughter was also born on October 8, 1993 – an amazing day. I cannot image your pain, your strength and I am sending you a warm loving thoughts. I wish I knew how to help. Hugs! Susan
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Oh I’m so sorry to hear about this.
Know that my heart, thoughts and prayers are with you through this hard time. 🙏🏽💖
Sending lots of love xoxo
Words escape me Pam, my thoughts and love go out to you and Taz.
Kia kaha as they would say in Maori, meaning be strong and have courage, and you certainly need all you can get. Love and best healing wishes from New Zealand
Kay
My heart is breaking for you but I know that Taz is more a part of you now than ever before and she will be able to do so much more to help people in this new dimension. She is in a wonderful place. This life is but a blink of the eye to those who have crossed over. It’s us who have to wait.
I’m sending you prayers of healing and love and am so thankful for the work that you do and are going to do to bring more light into this world.
Very much love from a fellow light worker.
Dear Pam,
I guess God needed another angel, but I don’t know why he had to take yours. Love from Patricia Mary
Pam you are so amazing. Oh my goodness I can only imagine how you feel. Sending love to you, the one who gives so much. Big big hug and love to you. Sally
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Hi Pam,
You are an amazing woman, an amazing being and to write what you wrote about your dear daughter so soon is showing all of us your grace, your strength, your ability to practice what you preach. As you have rallied around your supporters in moments of triumph and struggle, we shall now rally around you. Peace and love to you, Pam. Taz is a part of you and she is all around you. She will never be far. Although that being said, this sucks and is something no one should go through alone. Peace, love and light now, and in the moments of darkness that come. The amazing messages from the Universe! With all the 2s… that is special. Grace comes in 24 hour doses, Joel Osteen writes, in ‘I Declare’.
Peace and love, and Internet hugs, Pam. ❤
/Oh no!// //Pam Grout’s dad died earlier this year, her mom just passed away, and now this has happened to her daughter?// /-M.
Love & Light, Sweet Pam & Taz.
And Taz, I will definitely be voting ❤️
Pam, I send my heartfelt condolences to you and your family. She looked lovely. Nothing I can say is meaningful enough but you are in my thoughts. X
Lots of love pam… I can’t imagine your grief right now… you are an absolute legend… your books are amazing and have bought love and peace to so many .. lots of love to you, Taz and all who loved her.
I can’t begin to imagine your pain. Love and light to you and your family and to Taz.
Sending love,
Susan
Oh Pam, I can’t believe this. I am so truly and desperately sorry. Every mother’s worst nightmare. I just can’t believe this has happened to you, and I cannot even begin to imagine how you must be feeling. I have loved all your books and your posts, and I have only ever heard words of great love about your beautiful daughter. I send you love, and I am so sorry you have to bear this sadness. Nina
Dear Pam- Mere words are so inadequate; I’m joining with the many others in sending you and family much light, love and comfort.
Fierce love. Will travel. You said it. And you will again. Love you my friend.
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Pam, when I started reading your post it didn’t even click until I read it a second time that your beloved daughter Taz, had left this realm. I’m so sorry for your double loss with it being so close after your mother passing. Taz was a beautiful young woman and while she was a big light to light paths while she was here, she will continue to do that from the other side. Much love and a big hug to you and know you are in my thoughts.
Pam sending all my love to you. Taz is with you. Elizabeth Gilbert shares her experience of surrendering to grief, it has helped me so much, i hope it might help you. https://mailchi.mp/brainpickings/elizabeth-gilbert-rebecca-solnit-forest?e=70219b775c
We are love, we are miracles, we are light. Together we share the human experience, together we help each other have courage to feel the human emotions. Im so sorry for this epic loss, i send all my love and courage to you, no matter how much we know the Truth, we cant skip the raw, heart-wrenching pain of grief. But we can stand together, we can hug until it hurts, we can cry until theres no more tissues left in the State, we can. And we must.
And when its time, it will hurt a little less, and when its time it will feel a tiny bit ok, and thats when you’ll hear Taz and feel Taz, and you’ll be okay with the Truth.
I love you Pam. You’re a magic beautiful important soul and we’re all with you 💖
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Dearest Pam,
From one soul to another, my thoughts are with you…
You have inspired and helped me with your words for many years.
How can we understand why these things happen? I wish I had the words to help you.
Sending love to you and Taz.
Most of us cannot imagine what you are going through right now, Pam. I am so deeply sorry for your immeasurable loss. Please know that the love, light, thoughts, and prayers of so, so many people are with you, now and always. Sending you angels to bring you healing, strength, courage and peace in the difficult days ahead.
OMG. My son also died of an aneurysm — I had 44 years … Joined “The Compassionate Friends” for parents who lost a child … no words – sending Love & Compassion … I know the feeling — he lives on in my heart <3 as she in yours … Love & Gratitude
Sincerely, Mary Sankus
Pam, no words. All love to you and Taz.
My heart is breaking for you but I have faith you will get through this somehow.
quiet tears run down my cheeks. mixed feelings. sadness and yet great joy for the time you have had together in physical form. this is not the end though I felt my heart sink when I read your post. along with so many, I send you great love. thank you for taking your heart and putting us in it. you live in ours as well.
My heart goes out to you and sending all my love to you from Australia x
Dear Pam, I am reeling and at a loss for words. I want you to know that you and she touched my life so much and it gives me a great peace to continue knowing and loving you and your wonderful writing and your giving.
Sending you fierce love from my heart Pam. Losing your Mom and then Taz. SUCKS. Lifting you up in my heart.
Pam – May God’s blessings be upon you and yours at this unspeakable time….I am struck that your shirt in the beautiful picture you shared says “Peace Out” on it and you both have such bright smiles…..as Spiritually evolved folks we also must allow ourselves to be human in such times…..my prayer for you is that you allow your humanness to just be for as much and as long as necessary – you can go back to being all of our Super Hero when it is done. Let us lift you for now. Thank you for everything….
THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS 🙏🏾🕉🙏🏾
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Pam, my heart is breaking for you. I cannot imagine how you have managed this past week, however, the word’s “Be still and know that I am God” immediately popped into my head. Take time to heal lovely lady and know that there are thousands enveloping you in love.
My sincere best wishes for you in this time of grief….I love your writing and I am always excited to read your emails when they arrive! God Bless you and Taz….
Pam, my heart is filled with sorrow over the loss of your daughter (and mom). Along with those sad feelings is profound admiration for your strength and courage in the midst of such grief. Sending much love your way…
Surounding you with love, light and healing. Thank you for being an inspiration to me. Praying for you that the blessings of the spiritual fruits abound .
OMG! Dear Pam, you have been a role model for me lately and I always think of you when imagining my dream career and lifestyle. You are such an amazing and resilient shining light with wisdom beyond the ages!
What an incredible shock! I am sending healing energy to your precious gem of a daughter and lots of comfort and soothing ♥️♥️♥️
May this day, this moment, truly be the highest manifestation of the Course in Miracles for you and your beloved daughter! I am not sure what happened but there are so many miracles out there so may this time be yours!
Sending Blessings of the highest realms!
Dear Pam,
I had to read your mail several times to really comprehend that you have lost both your mother and your daughter in a few weeks. You have lost your frame. I cannot find words for how deeply sorry I am. My heartfelt deepest sympathies. Please accept a huge virtual hug from a total stranger. There is a reason for all this, but the knowledge won’t ease the pain for a while yet.
Love
Martina
Blessings Pam. Thanks for sharing about Your dearly beloved Tad. One day at a time! Patty Williams. A member of the Overland Park SOS (Sisters of Spirituality)❤️
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Sending you much love and healing energy during this most difficult time.
Pam you are such an inspiration and role model for me, even now that you’re struggling. What I’ve learned with time, is that physically my dad and grandpa are not here, but I get to feel their love anytime.
Sending you all my love and energy to help you in this transition.
Immense love to you, Pam; thank you for your brilliant and beautiful light. Thank you for sharing your experience. Your daughter is an amazing human and you wrote of her so beautifully.
May you be embraced in comfort, love, and light, Susan
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What an angelic face! You can tell the inner beauty that God treasures ( tthat he speaks of in the Bbible) So heartbroken for you! Kaye B.
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My eyes are tearing after reading this sad news – you have been an inspiration to me and Taz has been an inspiration to you. I’m so sorry for your loss. Her spirit has completed her human experience; far too early it seems but it appears her spirit is needed elsewhere in our Universe. May your grief soon turn to fond memories.
I’m so very sorry. My prayers of strength and love go out to you.
What an amazing creature you grew under your Heart and birthed to our world. My Motherheart is saddened that you won’t be able to wrap your arms around your Taz anymore. All light, love and good juju to you. Thanks for being gracious in your grief and sharing with us here. Gods speed to Taz.
Good Afternoon Ms. Grout,
Taz, you and your extended family are in my prayers during this difficult time. Words fail me. Know that we all love you and are keeping the faith. May angels protect your daughter🙏🙏
Thank You, Marcia Cooper
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Dearest Pam, I am so deeply sorry. I have no idea what to say. I truly hope the love and care of all your friends that “meet” with you here via your blog will somehow help you get through this overwhelmingly sad time, one day at a time. You are an amazingly strong woman and I’m sure your dear mum and your precious daughter are going to be right there with you as you grieve the loss of their physical presence in this life.
Thankyou for bravely and beautifully sharing your loss with us. I wish I could hold you in my physical arms right now but please know I’m holding you in my heart and sending my deepest love to you, today and every day. Take care of you dear Pam.
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With love & prayers for whatever you need to help you at this time,
from Jenny Louise
God bless you thru your grieving… I love you…my heart breaks for you…I can’t wait to hear about all the magic you and Taz create going forward…
And thank you for being part of my life💥
Dear Pam:
My heart goes out to you.
❤️ Sheila
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First I can’t imagine what you are going through. I was wondering the last couple of weeks where you were. I remarked to my wife that it just wasn’t like you to fall off the face of the earth. Now it all makes sense. All the time you give everyone such comfort in what you write and I hope Taz starts to communicate with you in such strong ways that the miracles just keep coming in faster and faster and give you some much needed solace. I am looking forward to your new book and I know it will be the best book you’ve ever written in your life.
Hugs,
Keith
My heart goes out to you, Pam, and many prayers too. So sorry for your loss.
My heart goes out to you at this time. I am sure you will need every bit of spiritual strength and understanding you have in order to heal from this huge loss. Take care of yourself. You are loved and appreciated by many.
Thank you for sharing the beautiful picture of you and your daughter, Pam. I join thousands of people holding you up in the same love and light apparent on your two smiling faces ~
Judy Best
Really sorry to hear this, you are in my thoughts
Wow. I definitely was not ready for that. I can only imagine what it was/is like for you. Sending you and all close to you, hugs and love. Blessings
I just am beyond words, words cannot say it at all, you have brought so much light into my life and I send it all reflected back to you now. Holding both you and your precious daughter to the light of love…. May ” the dude abide” with you both, God, Universe, Spirit.
What an amazing incredible soul you are Pam.
I always look forward to your emails where your deep love, enthusiasm and passion for everything good and positive, adventurous and fun literally shines through. What also came through was your deep, fierce and abiding love for Taz. I too have a daughter called Taz and I cannot imagine the pain you are in even though you know she continues. The sudden loss of her loving physical presence probably seems unbearable now but you will come through. Sending love and light to you x
So very sorry Taz is no longer with you in the body you created together… we share your grief and wish you healing.
Sending you and Taz love with all my heart. Such a beautiful soul, such a deep, deep loss. Your words have lifted my spirits so many times. I hope you can feel all the love for you and Taz flowing to you both.
I can’t express how sorry I am, have so many prayers and good thoughts for you, your daughter and mother as well. My heart goes to you right now in love.
Pam, my heart beaks for you. I too have lost a child at 28 yrs. It unravels you but knowing that they are still close brings some comfort. My beautiful boy now helps others pass over and I have been told that we have much work to still do together, as do you and your exquisite daughter. God bless you
Rae
Pam, my deepest sympathies. Only parents who have lost children can understand your grief. I gently suggest you get in touch with the Selah House Carefarm and Respite Center, a magical place near Sedona for parents who have lost children—of any age—to get some comfort and healing. You can find them on Facebook and at http://Www.missfoundation.org/Carefarm
602-279-6477
Dr Joanne Cacciatore is the director
Bless you and your daughter’s spirit
Pam,
After the loss of my daughter, I searched out the why and found my answer. I have become transformed because of her passing for the better. Because of your thinking and your voice, you will help more people than you can imagine including yourself. Great beauty and knowledge lies before you. You are like the butterfly in her first stage.
Patience.
May your heart be light, sending love to you and your beloved Tasman.
Dearest Pam,
I wish that I had something wise and profound to say that would in some small way, ease your pain. And yet, I am at a loss for words to help you with your sorrow. Please know that you are loved.
Sending you light.
My prayers and as many positive vibes as I can send are circling above you and Taz. My heart aches for you and the loss of your Mom and now this. As hard as it may be, please try and remain positive.
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My Darling Pam,
I did not see this coming. I …. No words.
Love Blessings , I am here for you xx
The spirit you evoke in all your tribes are here for you.
Vive Black
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My deepest heartfelt condolences. May all the joy and inspiration you have shared with us bless you many times over and carry you through and deepen the connection to Taz on the other side. Sending you light, blessings, love and peace.
Dearest Pam,
I could scarcely process the content of this email. So utterly unexpected. I am trying to send love and hugs and whatever other support I can from afar. Words seem very insufficient at this moment. I am so, so sorry.
Terra
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I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you. No mother should ever lose a child. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sending lots of love and light to you and Taz… there are no words… just holding you close to my heart.
Alle the blessings and love for Taz and you!
Peace and love and a Star of your own now. Dawn
Much Love to you, I noticed the date, Oct. 22, 2018. 222 There is so much Love, and more going on here than we can possibly Imagine! What an amazing daughter, as you always knew.
Dear Sister in spirit..if I could hold you in my arms right now and bring you peace and comfort I would. I ask for Gods love and light to surround you and give you peace beyond our understanding. My heart and prayers are with you dear one.
Sending you love and prayers and affirmations as you grieve this loss. As a mom with two daughters, I can imagine how tough this is. Thank you for the courage to share what you are going through. Marchiene Rienstra (Unity minister in Douglas, MI) >
deep love to you both 💖
All love. All blessings. Words don’t suffice.
Dear Pam,
So very sorry for what you are going through. Thank you for sharing and I am sending prayers and positive energy your way.
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My sincere condolences. I love you and admire you. I am praying for your strength and peace.
I love you Pam. I can’t imagine what you are going through. Surrounding you and your daughter with white light in my prayers, my mind, and my heart.
What!!???! Nooo, I am so sorry, tears in my eyes and soul. So sorry…sending you love and anything you need, dear woman, I am stunned…I hold you in my heart.
Pam, I am so sorry to hear about your beautiful daughter. I cannot even imagine the grief you are dealing with. Prayers to you sweet lady.
We all love you Pam!! Thank you for sharing you and Taz’s wonderful life with us!
Oh my heart. Dear Pam, you don’t know me but you’ve been in my life for just over 2 years now and reading this email at the dinner table, with my precocious son who won’t eat, has deeply touched me. You always brought me hope on dark days and your messages of light are special to me
I will send love and heart and soul to you now and I know others will be doing the same. I will bless my son, who tests my patience constantly and thank the stars for him, because of your daughter and you
Tam
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My heart is broken! Wishing you all the love and support during this unimaginable loss.
Sending love ❤️ and prayers 🙏🏼
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Pam, I’m so sorry to hear about Taz. Lots of love coming your way and thinking of you.
Love from
Loraine uk x
I was trying to leave a comment and I look up At the time and it was 2:22! We all love you Pam!!! 💝
OMG! My heart goes out to you! Blessings.
Dear Pam, I weep for you. I love you. Taz will always be a part of you and you’ll always be a part of all of us, your peeps.
Love,trust and faith.
JANE, from Jane BONNIE and WENDY at your first session on your book E Squared at Omega.
I’ve been missing your emails, I was literally thinking about you this morning. When I got your email, I was so excited to hear your news, your daughters beautiful smile made me smile, and I thought, wow, she is really gorgeous, you can’t help but see her light shining through her smile. Then I read your words and let it fully sink in, through my tears, there are no words, but thank you for your love in even this time, thank you for opening your heart, and having the courage to post your raw emotions. There are so many people holding you in love right now. Please know how very sorry I am for your loss.
I’m not as evolved as you or your other followers – my reaction is anger! It’s not fair or right that such an awesome being is taken before she has shared the many gifts she possessed. This news is sad and shitty.
Dear Pam you words, stories and humour have given me hope and strength so many times, in fact your recounting your journey home to Lawrence, pregnant, hot in that old car I have called to mind often to give myself courage, and now I read this and wish I had your skill to offer courage, but I can’t. What I can and will do, with so many others, is to keep sending you love and remember you in my prayers.
Beautiful
Much love sent your way!
You have both made such a significant difference in my spiritual growth. Much love sent your way.
Bless you Pam and Taz May you find peace in you heart. Unimaginable pain for you this year…… your dad, mom and now your daughter. Keeping you in prayer, thought, and sending you light and love.
Sending love to both of you!
Pam, I am in such shock. I can’t imagine the pain you are experiencing. I know Taz was your world and your best friend. I am praying for you. Love Nixie
So,so sorry for the passing of Taz. I lost my son suddenly at 26 to complications with his juvenile diabetes. The pain never goes away but I have a connection with him like I didn’t here. He is making a big impact on young souls crossing over. I’m thinking Taz was called for something special. Doesn’t lessen the pain. Sending as much love and peace your way as I can.
My new motto, Pam: “love fiercely and do quiet, kind things for the underdog.” Much, much, much love to you. A thousand hugs.
Dear Pam,
There are no words…I am so sorry…sending you all my love…so sorry…
I cry for your losses, even knowing the greater part of who we are cannot be contained in a body, flesh clings to flesh and my heart aches for you. Be kind to yourself as you learn a new way of being here on Earth. Sometimes even knowing all we know, all we can do is cry. As always, thank you for sharing your life and spirit with us. You are a blessing.
Love to you. Brenda Hunter
My heart hurts for you and my tears flow for you. I knew this morning not seeing a post again before I left that it would be something radical to keep you away so long. Anything but this. As a mother, and I’m sure almost any mother can tell you this, it’s easier to lose your own existence than your child’s. All I can do from here is hold space for you to get your feet back under you until you can put one in front of the other. Deep love for you from one mother to another.
Oh, Pam. The deepest, deepest love to you. May you especially feel surrounded by that at this incredibly disorienting time. Holy wow.
Beautiful tribute. Thank you for sharing your gifts.
Sending massive love to you and Taz <3
Pam, Sending abundant light and love to you. You next book will be your best book with Taz helping you every word of the way. Looking forward to reading it. Peace to you my friend.
Oh, my God. Sending you much love, Pam, and heartfelt condolences.
Natasha
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Pam I am so so sorry for the loss of your mother and your beautiful Tasman. May God bless them and may he comfort you. My heart truly aches for you Pam. If I could just hold you and hug you I would. Please feel the love of your family all over this earth and beyond.
You are a blessing to this world, one of Gods beautiful earth angels. You have helped so many of your brothers and sisters to heal and to soar. If somehow a few words could comfort you now I would be blessed to provide them. As I’m not fabulous with my own choice I asked God to present them through my cards..this is what he wanted to say…
“Don’t be afraid of change or death. They are just portals into new beginnings. Breathe deeply. Listen to the inner silence, in which you can hear what has gone before and that which endures for all time. You are part of an important legacy: you are a Steward of Mother Earth with work to do. Protect her, as she is a paradise. And be kind to yourself. Treat yourself with love and respect. You are a holy being of great potential. Grief will deepen you. Allow me to fill you with hope and trust and belief that the light will return, and you will burn even brighter than you could have imagined. You are loved.”
I love you Pam xox
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Hi Pam,
My heart goes out to you. Sending you both prayers and love. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Amy
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Pam, I love you. I love you. I love you.
It’s said that grief is the price we pay for love. For you now that price is higher than you can imagine. Love never dies, but the world is changed for you now. Grief is also solitary, but there are thousands of us who are sending you thoughts of peace. Maybe in some way that energy will reach you and lift a tiny bit of the burden.
Dear Pam Grout,
My condolences regarding the loss of your daughter, and all your losses this year. You are wise to note your lovely daughter is “not a body” and that she is still with you in so many ways. However, your poignant posting regarding the sudden loss of Taz, so soon after the passing of your father and then your mother truly devastated me.
Which is my clumsy way of apologizing for forwarding my original email to /you/, instead of forwarding it to a friend of mine, who is also on your subscription list. Only yesterday, my friend and I were talking and both noted your recent absence from our Inbox, and how we’ve missed you.
I don’t know if you will receive either email I’ve sent you today or not, but I hope if you do you will accept my empathy and my sympathy. (I knew I wanted to reach out to you, I’m just sorry I originally did it accidentally.)
Sincerely, Michele K.
All the love I have in my heart I am sending to you
Light, love, and strength my dear Pam. I am so sorry……
You are such an inspiration the way you see the bigger picture in the midst of your grief. Sending you 💕
‘ The heart that breaks
open
can contain the whole universe’
J. Macy
💖 u and your child
In everlasting Peace
S
Oh dear heart … I am so sorry … Sending love & light.
There are no words. I’m heartbroken for you. Please know you’re in my heart and prayers…..
Dearest Pam,
This is your friend from HMB CA, Anna Marie. We’ve talked before. I told you about the loss of my son who was 24. It been several years now. The first time I saw your post I was at a stop in traffic and could not comment but I noticed it was 1:22 and it is Oct 22. The next time I got home to look at it again because I just wasn’t sure I got right, it was 2:22! Both times my eyes are flooded with tears running down my face. There is so much I want to tell you but cannot do it here. I can tell you that I know for sure there is no separation, no death, and that we can continue our relationship with our loved ones. I have done this and so many miracles have come and continue to happen. I am in the process of writing about this in the hopes it can help others who have had tremendous loss. There is so much love pouring in for you, this actually helps TREMENDOUSLY. Go ahead and take it all in. I am also a spiritual teacher like you and have always been very positive. Sal was an amazing young man and touched so many people. Please contact me at my email annaenea@me.com if you want. I swear I will fly to wherever you are and stay in a nearby hotel to help you through this difficult time. My heart goes out to you, but you are strong and you are divinely connected to Taz and to God. You will be fine, new things will happen in your life that you never thought were possible. Know that Taz is with you. Sending love and prayers.
Oh God Pam, I cannot imagine your heartache. Tas was such a shining light, and it was always so fun to hear about your adventures together. You are brave to share your pain with all of us. Please let us carry you in our hearts and prayers during this sad time.
With love.
Julie M.
Sending BIG, BIG love your way Pam. ❤️ Juliette
Pam, you are in thoughts and in my prayers 💜
Dear Pam, i wish i knew the words to say. I have never messaged you before but just had to say how dreadfully sorry i was to learn of this just a few minutes ago. I have been waxing lyrically about ‘Thank and Grow Rich’ to many friends since a very good friend ‘paid it forward’ so that i could read it – it is truly such a fantastic and uplifting book – than you. I know i am a stranger (im in UK) but i will be sending prayers, healing, love and blessings to you. Take great care and i am so very sad for you, John U.
Dear Pam and Taz,
My prayers, love and support go out to you. Know you have many angels guiding your path, holding you up and delivering on the promise of the soul.
Thanks so much for all the encouragement and inspiration you put out in the world everyday! Sending you love and healing. ❤️💐🦋 Saira Priest
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Love and light shining in and around you both at all times 💞 there is no separation you are one in the same 😍 your community – your family, which you both have inspired and created on this earth is holding you right now dear ones in love and prayers 🙏
I cannot even begin to imagine your grief but, as a mom, my heart goes out to you in the biggest way possible. Taz was/is a spiritual leader because you no doubt raised her to have the confidence to follow her heart and serve others. Although she is no longer in that body, she is with you in your heart always. deb <3
Pure LOVE and White Light surrounds you both. Deep condolences.
Sending you love and strength and many prayers
Our hearts break for you…thank you for sharing your beautiful approach to this very tragic event.
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Sending hard love and light to help your pain Pam! You help so many people – and God has given you so many gifts! the body of your dear daughter has passed and you know her spirit has not left you… LOVE NEVER DIES …bodies do and it is SO hard to be without them in our physical world. It’s our loss that burns – sending Angels all around! Survived that loss and know I can’t give any words to ease your pain as it’s your process. God has a plan for each one of us – always for our highest good – even when it hurts. It ALWAYS for our highest good – not sometimes but all the time❤️ Thank you for sharing this with all those souls that love you and are here for you to send love at a time your heart needs holding. beth
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Hello,
You inspire me every day. I am so sorry these two losses occurred and so close together. I am sending you love and light and the strength to get through! Thank you for sharing this with us and allowing us to learn to go through loss better. So much support and appreciation for you!!!
Dearest Pam, words cannot express my deep sadness at learning of your tragic loss. I see it now…your beautiful Taz being escorted around the universe on wings of angels, and at the same time leaving a cavernous hole in your heart. I want you to know that I am so grateful for you. You have been such an inspiration to me in my darkest times… I keep your books at the top of my Audible cue at the ready. And now I hope you can feel the oceans of love that we, your tribe, are sending to you and everyone pained by this great loss. I hold you in my heart and send you love and light and peace.
Oh my God Pam. I am so very, very sorry for your losses, first for your beloved mom & secondly for your beautiful daughter, Taz. Your description of her amazing life was so lovely. What a heart centered young woman. I had just been thinking a day or two ago that I had not seen any of your blogs. Now I know why. Please accept my deepest sympathy. I send you abundant love & big warm hugs.
Love to you & your family,
Janice
I am sending the light of Love, and healing!!
I’m sending the most powerful healing bright white light to you and your precious daughter. You have been so inspirational to myself and so many others. All our love and support is surrounding you and your family.
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Pam,
I asked, what can I offer Pam and Taz at this time?
Something said, pick a card just for them. So in my unfinished deck of flower cards, this one came up. I hope its meaning for you is helpful and healing.
Thanks so much for all your ongoing encouragement and inspiration!
My love and prayers are with you. Warmly, Saira Priest
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You and your books have been nothing shy of miraculous for me – and I am sending love, light and thoughts of healing to you and Taz.
My deepest condolences for your loss. May the Divine comfort you in your time of grief. May the Divine loving light surround you always.
OMG! I am so so sorry! I also lost my mother and my daughter within a month of each other…..my two best people!
My mother died at 99 on my daughters BD in Oct. my daughter died in Nov. at 43.
Her two children were 15 and 11. Love 💗
I was numb for months but miracles do happen. My grand daughter has two beautiful girls…life goes on…sometimes in my darkest times I thought I could not keep going, but here I am,16 yrs later, doing my best at 82. I sing in a chorus, play cards and oil paint. I have lots of friends and a full life thanks to you and Richard Rohr. God bless you and give you peace.
My heart breaks for you reading the beautiful way you deal with the pain of losing your daughter, your greatest love. Sending you big love, lights and strength as you heal. Thank you for all the love you you send out to everyone even during difficult times. Blessings.
Pam, I’m thinking of you in this time of profound sadness. Your books have helped me through some dark times, so I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that. I wish the same healing for you, be gentle with yourself. Sending you love!
Love and Light. My heart breaks for you xo
Holding you in light and love and great appreciation for all of the wisdom and inspiration you have shared with so many of us over the years. Hoping that we can provide support and love to you as you navigate the next part of your journey. Even though Taz’s light has gone out in this world, I know it burns bright in the next.
Dear Pam,
I have been receiving your e-mails for a while now and while they often leave me pensive, joyful or amazed, none have touched me as much as this one. I cannot begin to comprehend the pain you are going through right now. I have no other words than to tell you how incredibly moved I am to see that even in the most difficult of times, you continue to serve as a tremendous model of faith, courage and hope.
Bless you and yours.
Condolences,
Denise
Talk about psychic. A little after 1 o’clock today I was brushing my teeth and I realized that I hadn’t gotten an email from you in a long time. I wondered if you were traveling but then something said someone has been hurt and you a devastated. I checked my email and got your message here. Holy moly. I’m so sorry. I am sending you all kinds of good thoughts. I hope you feel them.
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Pam,
I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved mother and your beloved daughter. I am sending you love and light. That is a beautiful photo of both of you. Ann
Pam I am so sorry to learn about the passing of your beautiful daughter. I read your post as I was sitting in O’Hare airport waiting for my return flight after visiting my daughter in Chicago for her 29th birthday. Tears came to my eyes as I read your post about your sacred number, 222. I closed my email as the tears prevented further reading. Just as I put my phone away they made an announcement about my flight–222 to SFO. I was clueless about my flight number until I checked my boarding pass on my phone when the announcement was made. But when I heard it, I knew I would be writing you. My daughter is all I have left of my immediate family. My son passed away from cancer 16 months ago at the age of 36. My husband passed in 1993, 5 days before my daughter’s 4th birthday. Knowing that we are not our bodies, that we will meet again in the spirit world is what keeps me going. Thank you for what you offer the world. I send you love and condolences, plus my mantra which came from Julian of Norwich: All shall be well, all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.
Dear Pam,
your post was such an unexpected theme. Tears flowed through the reading each phrase more heart wrenching. I add my prayers and thoughts to the many already expressed.Holding you in grace as you travel this path. Huge hugs
Pam: I am so deeply sorry for your loss, your grief and your pain. I remember you both chatting poolside a few years ago in San Diego. It was a special event and afternoon. The love ❤️ and light doesn’t stop. I wish I were there to comfort you. Take good care.
Pam – Thank you for sharing your heart so beautifully. Sending you love and peace 💜.
Holding you in sacred space in my heart. Loving, loving, loving you. XOXOXOXO, Dorothy Brown
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Pam,
I read your post in total disbelief; I came back and read it twice more, to be sure I was understanding it correctly. I am so sorry for your loss, and a devastating loss it is, regardless of our understanding that our children aren’t really our children, but the children of Love, who loves them more than we do, more than we are even able to comprehend. You have given so much to so many, and we are grateful. You are the recipient of innumerable uplifting thoughts and prayers. On angels’ wings… I know you can feel it.
Linda Burdick
I am so extremely sorry for your massive loss; I can’t imagine anything worse. Praying for both of you.
Chère Pam,
Mes plus sincères condoléances suite à la perte de votre fille, de votre mère, et de votre père il y a quelques mois. C’est beaucoup de chagrin pour un seul être humain.
Je vous envoie des pensées de courage, de la lumière et de l’amour. 💕
Sylvie
As I read your words this morning, I found myself smiling through my tears as you talked about 222, the sacred number you and your beautiful daughter share. I picked up my Angel Numbers book, and read these words: “222 = Trust that everything is working out exactly as it’s supposed to, with Divine blessings for everyone involved. Let go and have faith.” Surrounding you with hope and healing and infinite love, Pam. And above all, Divine blessings for everyone involved.
Love, love, love, love and thank you both♥️♥️♥️words will never be able to express….🙏🏻
Cat
Oh, Pam…so sad that you have to go through this. I can’t offer any more wisdom than that that others have already posted. Prayers for extra strength and support as long as you need it.
My deepest condolences to you, Pam. It feels so inadequate for such a devastating event. I do know that like birth to this physical form there is another birth to the nonphysical. I also know that words will not stem the grief, you can only feel it, live it and be patient with yourself, there is no timetable. Taz will always be with you as will your parents. The love given can never be taken away. I will keep you both in my prayers.
Fierce love to you both.
I’m so very sorry Pam. It is so hard to lose anyone you love, but losing your child – oh, so painful. I am in awe of your wonderful relationship with your daughter Taz, and I imagine she loves you every bit as much as you love her. It is incredibly hard to believe what’s happening when your loss is so sudden, and I hope you have many family and friends around you to hold you in their arms. I am holding you in loving energy!
Holding you close….
No words
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Pam,
Please know that your friends around the world are loving you back.
Cheryl in Australia XX
Pam, I am in shock for you, with you, and with Taz and this unreal amount of loss you are enduring with such grace. Unbelievable, but clearly all too real. The world loves you but grief is horribly solitary. I hope the intense adoration and yearning of all of us, your readers, gives you small comfort. So much love to you.
I’m shocked and heartbroken, Pam. You see, through you I’ve come to love Taz also. How can such a bright light be gone? The truth is her shine could never be snuffed out. I am quite certain she will be with you and those she loves more than ever. Sending you prayers and so much love, Sue Shanahan
Sending so much love, may you be wrapped in it, protected and comforted for as long as you need.
Pam
I am so so sorry. Sending you love and light, and, yes Taz, I sent in my ballot today!
My thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time.
May you know peace.
I love you, Pam.
Your tribute to Taz’s life is absolutely awe-inspiring, especially in light of the immense grief you must be going through. Sending you a big, comforting virtual bear hug of love, my friend. <3
Dear Pam
I only knew Taz through the pics you posted on insta. It has inspired me to see a young woman who obviously enjoys spending time with her mum (I have a 20 yr old daughter who I adore). I thank Taz and your beautiful self for sharing and inspiring and reminding me of how every day is such a blessing. Thankyou for sharing your beautiful daughter with the rest of us. Your wisdom in grief is more than any of us could ask for. Take care of your heart. You have given the rest of us so, so much.
Bless you both. Xx Lulu
Oh Dear Pam,
Tears are streaming down my face. I love you and your beautiful daughter as if we are best friends.
How may I help?
I love you both so dearly.
Always, Kate
My heart goes out to you. Thank you, Pam, for sharing this with us. Thank you for sharing Taz with us. And thank you for sharing your future adventures with Taz with us. Thank you.❤️❤️❤️
My heart has broken for you. Much love. I am lost for words.
There are no adequate words. Sending love & hugs.
You are in my heart. The biggest of hugs to you.
In kindness, Kimmy Sent from my Verizon Wireless 4G LTE Droid
All I can do is wrap you both up in divine love, and mine. My prayers and love are with you both for complete and rapid healing. Kate xxx
Pam, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I wish you strenght, peace, light, and hope. I am really sad.
There are no words, Pam . . . Even though we’ve never met, we’re family (Grouts). I am a single mother, and your loss hits so close to home. I am down on my knees praying for God’s healing love to surround you both and give you peace. If there is anything I or your Iowa family can do for you, please reach out! . . . and you said it in your beautiful tribute to your daughter “God never gives you more than you can handle,” . . . Lean on him, and lean on your friends and family . . .
This is heart wrenching, I have no words, Praying…..
Oh Pam, what a special soul she is! I am so very sorry to hear this. She was a beautiful girl and though I don’t know you well I remember brief encounters through childhood activities with my daughter Sophie. Much love to you as you navigate the loss of your dear Taz.
Oh, sweet Pam, I am shocked, heartbroken and devastated, have been crying all day. Despite all my spiritual beliefs, it feels so unfair for this to happen to someone who gives so much love and joy to the world every day. You are a blazing sun. Your words have profoundly inspired and helped me through many dark times, and I love you and Taz as dear friends, even though we’ve never met. I too thought of you just this morning and missed your emails, and am currently traveling with one of your beloved books right next to me. It occurred to me that you initiated relationships with millions of people by sending your beautiful work out into the world — in a sense, you birthed all of us and we are all your family. I hope that you can feel the fierce circle of love and gratitude that we are all sending back to you, lifting you up and comforting you in softness and gentleness. We love you, Pam Grout. Sending profound love to you during this heart wrenching time. 💕💕💕
Pam, You have been a source of hope and inspiration for me. And here you are—at this time—still lighting the way for others. Much love to you and Tas, and thank you for sharing her with us.
Much love to you Pam! You are in my heart and my prayers.
❤️❤️🌈🦋
I hope that god can help you at this heartbreaking time. Sending you all the love I can. Sorry for your tragic loss.
Thank you Pam for such a deeply personal blog. The love you shared with your beautiful daughter shines through in every letter, every word, every nuance. Do deal with so much change in such a short space of time is truly challenging. Your Mom and your Daughter will guide you to the right places and people on this earth plane. My heart goes out to you. Fierce Love. Theresa ❤️❤️❤️
All our love & prayers are with you, dearest Pam.
Dear Pam I am an devoted fan and admirer of you and your work. My heart goes out to you and I wish you love, strength and all the comfort you need at this time. Much love and blessings Barbara Werb (South Africa)
Dearest Pam – sending you much love and light.
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She is love put into movement. She has been and will continue to be perfect love for you. As separate bodies you both enjoyed this earth experience. As One you bring her to us with your presence.
Love
Isabel C.
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Dearest Pam,
I have no idea what to say except this news rocked my world this morning.And to send you love and prayer. My heart is with you. xx >
All my love to you and your daughter!
missed your emails and was wondering if you were on a wonderful trip or something not so nice could have happened…and now this awful news. Love you Pam and your beautiful daughter, wish you trust in all and everything.
I’m sitting here at my computer reeling in shock and deep, sincere grief for you, having just read your post. No words can express how very sorry and sad I am for you. I send you love, prayers and peace at this most difficult time in your life. I am sorry. . . . . with love
Pam, I cried for you today, love BJ
My heart breaks for you. There are no words. Love
Pam. Taz is in my heart. You are in my heart and I send you blessings.
Pam I am so very sorry to hear this sad news about your Taz. My heart breaks for you, my mum and dad lost my youngest sister at 31 yrs old and it is not the way it is meant to be. I know I don’t know you personally but I have your books and absolutely love your blogs. I send you lots of hugs and loads of blessings for you and your loved ones.
So very sorry about your Mom and daughter-hold great memories close to your heart-you are such a positive force for all-may we all send positive thoughts and energy your way in this difficult time❤️
Oh, Pam. It`s so sad. She is steel living for the God. She is very beatiful. Pray about you both. Thank you for your books, they give expierens to live in love with reliance in thise world
I have no words, Pam. Only to say you have not lost Taz, cos Love is never lost
Dear Pam, words fail me. My heart goes out to you – am sending all my love and hugs from Germany. Thank you so very much for sharing this with us – you are deeply loved by us all.
Dagmar xoxo
Pam: Am sending you boundless love. I’ve been there, and there’s nothing more excruciating. Be kind to yourself – v important – and take all the love you need.
x
Dallas
Dear Pam,
So, so sorry for your loss..
There are no words.
I am sending you lots of love
Sabina
No words…. just love, love, love. ❤️❤️❤️
Dearest Heart and Brightest Light,
Such sadness! I cannot imagine the pain. Not even close. And here you are letting it move through you and move you to reach out to us.
Thank you for now being doubly courageous and doubly connected,
and helping us get doubly clear on these truths.
Love,
MK
Bless you both!!!
Thank you for sharing during this tough time…I’m so grateful for you and really wondered where you were lately as I’m always so happy and inspired with all that you share and the encouragement to always reach for that higher thought and to be grateful…and here you are being grateful in your darkest moments and remembering the light!! Shine on you beautiful diamonds!!! Much Love and Apprreciation 💗
I was drawn to read your post today for some reason, I don’t always if I’m honest, time constraints, I know you undersrtand. My kids are to me all that you said your daughter was to you, my ex husband has made me feel bad for feeling like that.
I can’t even begin to imagine your loss but I do know one thing, pain, even something so great as you are having to deal with will shift eventually, She didn’t want to leave you I know that for sure but the universe had different ideas for both of you. I wish you all the love in the universe and for you to be eternally grateful, as you have said, for your magical time together. Thanks for sharing, it has gone deep inside me today as I am at the end of a very painful journey myself and your words strangely have given me even more strength. You will continue to inspire and share love. Don’t ever close or stop. Lovve Kathy xx()
Oh Dear!!!
Pam you are genius.. you are light house for us, kudos to your strength and courage.
Our prayers are with you. Taz will be recover soon. Everything, you and Taz imagined will come true,
God bless you.
I’m so sorry to hear about what you are going through…..my soul is with you giving you strength to endure…I knew I needed to read your email first thing this morning because before reading it (between 4am when I woke up and now – 5:40am chicago time) I kept seeing “222” everywhere and wondered what the Universe/HS wanted me to connect with….THEN I READ YOUR EMAIL…..sending my love, positive energy, angel blessings your way to you and your precious daughter. I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through but know you have my love and support.
I’m so sorry to hear about what you are going through…..my soul is with you giving you strength to endure…I knew I needed to read your email first thing this morning because before reading it (between 4am when I woke up and now – 5:40am chicago time) I kept seeing “222” everywhere and wondered what the Universe/HS wanted me to connect with….THEN I READ YOUR EMAIL…..sending my love, positive energy, angel blessings your way to you and your precious daughter. I can’t begin to imagine what you are going through but know you have my love and support.
Dear Pam
Oh My God Sweetheart,
I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter and the tremendous pain you must be feeling
Please take care, am sending you and your daughter lots of love, anything that can give a little comfort during this sad and difficult time….
You are an amazing woman Pam Grout and Im sure Taz would want nothing more, than
for her Mum to be so happy with life….
GOD BLESS XXX
Rob
Joy when I started to read; sorrow as I continued. Words are in adequate, except one: LOVE.
Praying for you, Pam
Love and light ~Kim ✨
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Dear Pam
I sit here with tears and cannot imagine what you must be going through. I think of my own children and want to hug them close. Pam, my heart and prayers go out to you and your family, and I am sending you so much love, light and healing xox
Love and light, prayers at this most difficult time. xo
I send you light, the light of Love Jean-luc
Love and light surround you … I’m crying at your loss…. may you be able to find peace in the future, but grief is your right these hard , hard days. Love always. Sadness now.
Oh Dear Pam, I’m so incredibly sorry for what you are going through. What a lovely tribute to your daughter. You’ve spent your life bringing joy, hope, love and light to the world and now I hope you let all of us send it back to you. Grieve honestly knowing that she is with you and let love gently heal your soul.
I am here to walk with you and hold your hand through this time. Infinite peaace and love.
I am so so sorry. When I began reading your post I was imagining you would continue on talking about going to see the movie with your daughter and how you spent your time with her afterward, enjoying her company and belatedly celebrating her birthday. It was shocking to read what actually came to pass so I can only imagine what you are going through right now. Surely she is with you, holding your hand and comforting you through this. I pray you can feel her presence and that you can feel the love coming from those of us who have learned of her passing. Peaceful blessings to you dear one.
This has broken my heart to read, Pam. She’s a complete Mini Me, the image of you! Lots of love to you.
So sorry to hear this, Pam. May God bless you and keep you through this difficult time.✨
Dear, dear Pam, Thinking of you and Taz with love and light, Xxxooo! From one of your many fans, Susan Maura Burns
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Dear Pam, Taz is now completely free to touch us all at the same time. Immense love knows no bounds. Let her guide and comfort you now. Thank you for sharing her light.
Pam, my heart aches for you. There are no words to lessen the pain of losing a child, especially one so special as Taz. I am thinking of you and sending you love. <3
I was looking forward to an email from you. Sometimes I’ve thought of you these last few weeks. I was searching in her social networks for some vestige that you were well, just busy and would contact us.
I confess I was worried, I remembered that your last disappearance was at the time of her father’s loss.
But even in our greatest imaginations we can not suppose what really goes on with the other.
Stay with my embrace and my total gratitude. You’re a light to my life. And I was very grateful to the Universe for having the chance to follow your path!
May you find all the strength and air you need to breathe, breathe and breathe.
My deepest condolences!!
My thoughts and prayers are with you!!
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I have a 25 year old daughter – cannot even imagine.
Love from a Mainer on the road
I had been missing your emails since you are so very inspiring to all of us. Never could visit have imagined something like this. My heart is breaking for you. You were blessed to have had Taz with you even if for such a short time and the love you have share will be with you always. I wish that I could help you like you have helped us all but all I can do is send you love and prayers. God bless you Pam. We are all here for you with our love.
Dearest Pam,
I read your post today and just wanted to reach out. Even though I reside hundreds of miles away from you I’m sending you a humongous cosmic hug. Indeed with every hardship comes ease. May Tasman’s light shine always.
Arifa xxxx
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Pam, my heart is with you. My arm is over your shoulder right now.
A small, soft feather – Joyce Rupp – Cosmic Dance – An Invitation to Experience Our Oneness
a small, soft feather,
still warm
from bluebird’s wing,
falls on the receptive
forest floor.
lightly it lands
under a thick-branched oak;
quietly it waits,
unnoticed, unattended,
until a sister of earth pauses,
beckoned by a flutter
of unseen energy.
she bows her kindled heart
stoops ever so slowly,
and the remnant of the blue bird
comes home
to her generous hand.
days later another earth sister
opens an envelope;
resting inside, waiting,
is the blue of sky
in the shape of a feather.
from warm wing
to great oak
to earth sister
to friend,
comes the soft blue signal,
and in a sparkle of recognition
a woman, weighed down
with too many wants,
remembers how to fly.
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This is just so very shitty! I know you feel all the love that surrounds you, may it comfort you and hold you tight! Taz…enjoy!
Dearest Pam,
Miracles arę possible. Believe!
Anita Morjani’s book „Dying to be me” comes to mind. Your daughter is with you probably closer than ever. Feel the love from her and from all of us who love you!
This is just a test…
Lots of love to you and your daughter Pam! I am a huge fan, read all of your books and look forward to your post everyday – you are a good friend and an inspiration to me, so I am heartbroken. The loss of her body does not mean that her spirit is gone – she will always be with you! Lots of love and prayers coming your way.
Dearest Pam,
I am so very sorry to hear that your daughter has left her physical body. My daughter Jaz returned to spirit 10/13/17. I wrote to you during this time trying to find some relief from the “ human emotions “ I was feeling at that time ( I am not sure if this may help but here was your reply…)
Dear sweet Lisa,
My heart aches for you. I can’t even begin to imagine how that must feel. I wish I had some great words of wisdom, but quite frankly, I got nothin’.
I do know there’s always a bigger purpose than what we see here with our physical eyes and I’ve talked with enough people and read enough books to know that both your son and daughter are still with you–just not in the same form.
I know, what comfort is that? I almost feel irrelevant even saying it.
Have you read The Afterlife of Billy Fingers or Anita Moorjani’s book or Eben Alexander’s books? I happened to read all three before my step-daughter passed a few years ago. I also know Lorna Byrne (she sees angels) who was 8 before she learned her older brother Christopher who she played with every day had “died” when he was a baby.
The world is so much bigger than we can even imagine and I believe good can come from everything and I pray for you to be touched by huge incarnate love. I’m sending my love through the ethers.
Blessings,
Pam
Hi Pam,
I love reading your newsletters. Just wanted to let you know that I’m sending huge amounts of love to you and Taz now. [*HEART*] [*HEART*] [*HEART*]
Sarah
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Pam, my heart was glowing as you spoke of your beautiful daughter and I was shocked to read on. I’ve been driving reached out to you directly before but I’ve followed you for years and have read some of your books.
I’m so very sorry, almost in tears feeling the despair and hurt only a mother can understand. Sending you love and healing light, the chapter isn’t over.
Much love, hugs and energy, Tiffany in Milwaukee
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I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. Plus I’ve been meaning to thank you for all the joy you spread and no doubt will continue with the love in your heart that will carry you through this time.
You’re amazing.
Much love
Vanessa A fan of your wisdom and humor.
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Omg. Omg. Omg. Your faithful are with you. I am with you. If you need someone to be with you, I will come from Fort Collins. I mean it. I love this you Pam. Laurel
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Hi Pam,
That’s awful news. I loved to read about your beautiful daughter. And I am sending you and her lots of love and light and healing energy. As I am sure lots of others do. And we know a miracle will take place.
Big hug,
Caroline (from the Netherlands)
Pam Grout schreef op 22-10-2018 19:10:
> psgrout posted: “”In order to keep us going, it is enough to be grateful for the next breath, because it’s not to be taken for granted that I can take another breath.”–David Steindl-Rast Some 25 years ago, I was invited to a small gathering with a psychic who had flown ” > >
Sending love and prayers for you both.
I love you both and hold you in my heart.
So sorry to hear. She is still with you and all of us. Love is Eternal.
Sending healing Reiki to you Pam. Praying for your peace. 🙏
Much love Pam
Yes, we know they are “alive” having a glorious and excellent adventure and if we are lucky we “hear” from them from time to time and though it is a consolation the pain of their physical absence is numbing often searing and at times debilitating. The fact that she was 25 makes it doubly so. My sympathy for the loss of this brightest of lights.
A star has died. It’s okay to feel horrible. She was your dream who came true.
Perhaps your next purpose in life is to make her dream come true.
Pam
I am so sorry to hear about Taz , such shocking news. Sending love and hugs to you. Xx
How things unfold… Sending much love, Pam x
Darling Pam,
I am a student of a course in micracles too, I have not studied it for very long. I have loved your posts and they have really made a difference to me. It makes me very happy when I see I have an email from you. Always an uplifting and positive energy. I know, that you know that your beautiful daughter was not her body but you are a spiritual being having a human experience and it really hurts when we lose people we love. What you are going through sucks. As a mother of a 21 and a 18 year old girl, I can’t begin to imagine the pain and loss you are experiencing. I just wanted to reach out and send you lots of love. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Much love
Andie
Your post gave me chills. Focusing healing energy for the highest good. Sending love. BN
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Sending you love from Idaho. Thank you for being so brave and sharing this with all your people. You are such a bright inspirational light in my life… I wish I could help.
My heart is breaking for you. Yes, I too “know” that my son of 36 years was/is not his body. And, for a few moments over this last 42 months I have actually believed it. However, most of the time it just doesn’t seem so. Within 30 minutes of my finding him (brain anuerism) I had this incredible, peaceful, quiet and overpowering experience. I said out loud to God…..”thank you for letting me be his mother for this time.” I thought to myself, “how can you be so calm? This isn’t how you should be feeling.” Then one Sunday afterwards, in church our pastor asked, “how long has it been since you allowed God to thank you?” And that moment I realized that my peaceful experience of gratitude was God and Jeff thanking me.”
In my still and quiet times, I hear him encouraging me, guiding me, and loving me unconditionally. Just the way I love him.
I bless you Pam. Allow yourself to take AS MUCH TIME as you need to get through the fallout. You have so many people praying for you, praying for Taz and surrounding you both with light and love.
No way getting around the suck factor.
Know that you are loved.
Pam, sending you lots of love at this difficult time. Words often seem inadequate however your words have inspired me through so many difficult situations that I don’t know where to begin to express what I am feeling in my heart for you today.
The power of love is infinite and you are loved and adored by all of us and the Universe xxoo
Warm hugs for you today, Janice
http://www.naturhythms.com ________________________________
Blessings and much love to you and Tax
Sending so much love xxx
My God, Pam. I have no words. Just love. We are ALL sending you SO much love. Lucy xx
Oh Pam… While reading the beginning of your post I was really “feeling” your words. I was admiring the beautiful photo of you and your daughter while appreciating the strong mutual love, respect and friendship eminating between you and Taz. I was marinating in all of these beautiful emotions when I get to the part about ….”the policeman knocking on my door….”. As I continued to read, it felt like someone had punched me in my heart. And gut. Really hard… What? No!!! As I type right now, my heart absolutely aches for you. I “get” that we are all eternal souls in our physical bodies, and I “get” that we are all …”spiritual beings having a human experience”. I “get” that as parents we are privileged to have been chosen by our children who are more then likely here to guide us, than we them. So, why do the words feel so empty and meaningless right now? Why does it feel like there needs to be some sense made of this?
Having had the experience of my son transitioning, quietly reminds me that the beautiful love between you and Taz will continue on.
There are no words. There just aren’t.
There is….. lots of light, love, clarity and ultimate peace being sent your way.
I hope you feel that.
Monica
Dearest Pam, There are no words that anyone could say that will take away this pain you are experiencing. My dearest friend for the past 26 years lost her 30 year old son suddenly, unexpectedly, tragically. And in the last 6 months since his transition, he has spoken with his family, and even me, in so many ways, regularly and so clearly. Taz is still there, right there, next to you, wanting you to not be sad, to know she still exists, and when the pain eases a bit, or maybe even sooner, I know in my heart that she will let you know she is there and will always be right there with you. All my love, hugs and comfort. Marie.
I’m so sorry for your loss Pam. You words are always an inspiration as was this post. My heart goes out to you.
I am just heartbroken for you. Sending you grace, love and light as you set out on this sad journey. May you find peace and comfort in the beautiful love you and Taz created.
I always look forward to receiving and reading your emails. With your wisdom and references to the course of miracles
My heart goes out to you.
Never stop being you xx
God must now think you are grander than anyone imagined because he gave you the hardest circumstance of all to handle. You inspire us even in the midst of your intense grief. Since I learned about you from E Squared, you have become my most amazing trusted mentor, spiritual teacher, author, and whenever i read something you wrote, I related to you as my dear friend. Pam, my heart and soul are with you. I love you deeply.
Pam: I am speechless at my desk crying. If there is anything I can do, please say the word. I am so excited for Taz to be with God but so heartbroken for you to have to be separated from her for now. I love you and would do anything in my power to support you and to help you as you have helped me. Even now you are teaching me many lessons. xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
My heart aches for you. You have changed my life. I was suffering with PPD after the birth of my twins, my third and fourth children. I was seriously contemplating ending my life and praying daily for God to increase my faith. In perfect timing, in came a reference to your book, E-squared. I read it August 8th, 2018, and haven’t had a single dark or gloomy day since. Your book has helped me immensely, as well as numerous friends and family members whom I have passed it on to. I have now purchased and am reading a couple of your other books, and can’t get enough of your wisdom and wit.
Sending you SO much love. What a beautiful story you shared with all of us about your daughter. She will be guiding you all of your days going forward, and I can’t wait to see what you each have in store.
<3
Samantha
To say I was shocked is an understatement. You have helped me through my grief with your words of hope and encouragement but loosing your daughter at such a tender age well there are no words. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Love and hugs and strength are being sent to you from me.
Holy SH#$!!! HOW DOES A HUMAN DEAL WITH THIS KIND OF LOSS!!!My heart is hurting for you.The only thing I can do, powerless in the face of this, is to wish you comfort and peace.Lord knows you have given me and countless others those two lifesaving states of being.
Pam, there are no words, just huge love for you and Taz
Love and hugs. May you always feel her near you.
Dang….
No words but Love ❤
Dear Pam, sending you all my love.❤️ I hope that the knowledge of the love and inspiration you are and Taz have given to so many people, will help you get through this sad time ❤️ 💑❤️
Much love and blessings sent your way.
Dear Pam,
When I read your post yesterday about Taz, my heart ached for you. I cannot even begin to imagine what you are feeling. I’ve been reading your books and blog for two years and have especially loved every story you’ve shared about all your wonderful adventures with Taz. The love you and your daughter share is inspiring to me. Just the other night before seeing your post, I was re-reading the story you share in E-Squared about Taz’s 222 phase and laughed out loud. And then yesterday, I just cried after reading your post. Although I believe as you do that we are far more than our bodies, I know that doesn’t lessen the grief we feel when someone we love deeply transitions out of theirs. Sending you much, much love, and a great big hug.
My heart goes out to you and your daughter. You are both in my thoughts and prayers ❤️
Sending you so much love and strength through the power of prayer and meditation! you are an amazing teacher / healer / writer and to share this experience with such truth and love……we are always learning from you! blessings to you always xoxoxoxoxo
Dear Pam,
When I read your post yesterday about Taz, my heart ached for you. My deepest, deepest sympathy. I cannot even begin to imagine what you are feeling. I’ve been reading your books and blog for two years and have especially loved every story you’ve shared about all your wonderful adventures with Taz. The love you and your daughter share inspires me. Just the other night before seeing your post, I was re-reading the story you shared in E-Squared about Taz’s 222 phase and laughed out loud. And then yesterday, I just cried after reading your post. Although I believe as you do that we are far more than our bodies, I know that doesn’t lessen the grief we feel when someone we love deeply transitions out of theirs. It feels so wrong on so many levels for a parent to have to say good-bye to their child. Sending you much, much love, and a great big hug to help you get through this.
I so sorry Pam. No words.
Much Love ❤︎
Dear Pam,
I went to bed last night praying for you and Taz and your mom. It was the first thing I did when I awoke this morning as well. I prayed every time I was in the car today and told everyone I met about you and your beautiful daughter and asked them to pray as well. You are surrounded by infinite love, but even then I can’t imagine how you feel, faith helps but this is devastating. You’ve helped so many people, now it’s our turn to help you. You and the Creative, Beautiful Genius Taz are loved, admired and prayed for.
Godspeed.
Pam, my heart goes out to you, I am so sorry for your loss, Losing your child is beyond heartbreaking.and your Mother as well. You will survive this, and I know she will always be there with you. Peace and love to you….”When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.” Kahlil Gibran
May the Spirit that brought you together continue to bond you to one another, in Love, beyond this physical experience. There is no doubt. Allow yourself to trust that Love, and Taz, are with you.
My heart is broken for you, Pam. You give so much love & light to others. I hope you can feel the love coming your way & find some peace in the arms of that love.
Pam, I am holding you in prayer and love, and you and Taz have been on my heart since I found out. Sending a big hug, and please know if there’s anything I can do (a walk, coffee, food, etc.), I’m here. — Caryn
Dear Pam, Your books and emails are so inspiring and I always look forward to hearing what’s up with you. I can’t think of anything right to say at this time except that I lift you up with love and prayers and can’t help but think that Taz is all around you, all of the time. My hope is in that, when you’re ready and know that, even though many of us have never met you, that we ALL lift you up in your time of unimaginable grief!
In stunned disbelief… I send you my deepest love and purest blessings dear Pam… I feel as if I have known Taz through all your wonderful writings and anecdotes… May she soar and continue to touch us all.
Ava xxx
Gosh, it is hard to know what to say!! Please know that I am sending you massive hugs and tremendous love!!
Holding you and Taz in my heart and surrounding you with love.❤️
Sending you love and healing thoughts. I have two beautiful daughters and I know the bond between mother and daughter. May you feel the love from all your followers who grieve with you.
Pam, I cannot make any sense of this unthinkable loss. My heart breaks for you, my friend. I awaken in the middle of the night and ask Jesus why. I hear no answers but when I ask is Taz with you, I feel a peace. She is fine, but you are left to live a life without her. My heart breaks for your loss. Call for me and I will come sit with you and hold you while you grieve. Her love is embedded forever in your heart. With much love, Suzanne
A Star is Born
Pam, Joining my heart filled love with all. I am part of MC Immersion group and was touched.
Pam, you have touched my life and filled me with joy for some time, now. You even have me considering starting a group (can’t say “church” as I don’t go for those) for LoA. I am waiting for that perfect time. So much has happened since E-Squared and all the other works I have read concerning LoA and life itself, “Dying to be Me” comes to mind when I think of your situation.
Anyway, Somehow, someway (Facebook,my blog, whatever) please feel free to write, call, or text me should you need anything.
I just keep remembering “All things work out in the end” and I am, usually, at peace.
Scott
Blessings to you. I was sad because my daughter has just fractured her foot, now I will embrace the fact that she is still with me and the privilege it is to have a shitty time of it.
Sending you my heart.
Hi Pam, first, I thought, Look at those two! I studied Taz’s face and saw an old soul with a calmness about her. So so sweet and precious. Then I started reading. I had just about an identical experience with a psychic. And 3 week’s later… yep. Pregnant. I continued reading, then had to reread to completely understand what seemed un-understandable. When it registered, I began quietly sobbing for you. My 15-year-old walked in my bedroom just then and I reached both arms to her for a hug and cried, “Pam’s daughter died.” She had no idea what I was talking about. I feel your pain and want you to know I am so so sorry for your loss and your beautiful girl. She did so much good and you traveled with her and raised such an amazing person. I wish all us followers of your blog could take away your pain. Much love, Nancy
My dear Pam
Sending you endless streams of Love and Light to surround and support you at this very difficult time.
Jane xxx
I cannot imagine what you are going through. My heart goes out to you. You have helped so many people in so many ways. I hope it comes back to you in abundance during this time of need. My prayers are with you. Much love.
Roxanne
My heart goes out to you, firstly losing your mother and then your beloved daughter in such a short space of time. I lit a candle for the three of you and will continue to do so. You are much in my thoughts and I’m sending you love.
I am so sorry. No parent deserves to go through this. You are in my heart and in my prayers. Sending you love, inner peace & light xxx
Sending love rippling into the world in Taz’s honor today Pam. So much love your way.
Love and light my beloved Pam, I feel deeply sad
Your grace in the face of unspeakable loss is so uplifting. Thank you for sharing and may peace be with you, always.
Oh Pam, my heart’s sister. Thank you so much for giving me and the physical TAZ. And knowing even in the shock of loss, that she is now giving herself/soul to a universal “us”.
Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists. Herein lies the peace of God.
I had to read this over and over. I just could not believe what I was reading. There are no words. I am so sorry that this has happened.
I have never responded before but as my eyes well up with tears and love and support for you I am sending a stream of loving kindness to you and Taz.❤️
Dear Pam, Sending you and Taz so much Light, Love and understanding, knowing Taz is “One Self united with her creator” .
Love, Megon
We are all holding you. Feel for us and we are there.
Dear Pam,
So sorry to reading this email.
My prayers and love for you.
I feel like I can visualize Taz and I feel like she is my own niece.
Stay strong dear….
Sharmin
My sincere condelances.
Dear Pam,
My deepest sympathy for you in this difficult time. My only son past away 6 years ago from aneurysm too. He was 32. It was the most difficult first 3 years. My spiritual journey started at that time. Thanks many books and yours too for helping my. My life getting happier and happier now. I still have my Son, but he lives in different dimension. I am happy for him, for his eternal life. I am proud of him for who he became. I wish you fast recovery and continue your journey with your daughter in your heart. Love from my heart to yours.
Oh, Pam. I’m sending you love as you grieve.
May God hold you even closer,during this sad time.
I feel for you Pam so much! sending you love and light… sometimes it is so difficult to understand why we are being challenged in such cruel ways…
Dear Pam, II’m sending you all the love and peace I can muster. My sadness for you has sparked the selfish fear of losing my own child.
Your books mean so much to me – I re-read them often and just two nights ago dived back into E3. I smile whenever anyone says “dude” in any context, because I hear it as “The Dude” and it reminds me we are all God.
We’ll be with you on this journey.
Wendy x
I am certain you had many replies to your blogpost, Pam. I have read and reread it many times! It is so poignant and beautifully written. I can hardly believe this happened to you, and that your mother and daughter have gone to the other side nearly the same time! You and Tasman are so lovely together, like soul mates. I am honored to be able to read your story. I send my blessings and prayers, because even though we are wise in the ways of Abraham and ACIM , darn , this is intense… I have 3grown daughters myself and a single mom too! I hope your beautiful girl will share her insights and wisdom from her expanded version with you and us readers too! Take deep care and know you have a lot of folks who have your back if need be! Much love Kate Lynde in Ashland Oregon
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I am so sorry for your loss. I can’t even understand the depth of grief you must be going through even though you know how she lived. I know you will miss her every minute of every day, but you know she will always be with you in little hidden ways. Again, my very deepest condolences. Brucette
Pam-
I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your mother and beautiful daughter Taz. I pray that your faith, the universe and your higher self will help you begin to cope with this incredible loss. Your writing has helped me during some of my darkest times. May all the inspiration, guidance, wisdom and comfort that you have so generously given to others over the years come back to you tenfold, now when you need it most.
Sending you love, healing energy and my heartfelt desire that you will find peace.
Love,
Tami
Sending waves and waves of love your way and blessing Taz in her FREEDOM FORM💕. Knowing strength and courage lift you from mornings to moonrise.
Pam,
I had been sharing your posts, (and still do) but had gotten behind on e-mails, so just read about this. Anyway, I was shocked and shed tears of grief for your loss, but know Taz will be looking over you now and has a perspective on things we only long for. You’ve probably already read Anita Moorjani’s book.
Love and blessings to you.
I love you Pam and my heart goes out to you, now and always. I hardly know what else to say…
Pam, you’re the real thing, living your words written about how to live. If your readers didn’t know that already, we sure do now. Taz must be proud of you. While my heart aches from the news of your tragedy (so young!), I imagine even more beautiful moments and blessings will flow into your life as you experience this dramatic shift. The energy of life is the unknowns, the anything can happen, anytime, the no guarantees. I am grateful you’ve had years of experience on the level to receive Tasman’s death as her other gift to you.
Blessings to you Pam, from my heart
love you both wild spirit girls – full of tears now i open my arms to a huge hug
Much love to you!
I am so sorry to read of your loss. I am a 30’s something Englishman living in Hong Kong and stumbled on a book of yours in a coffee shop back alley. I felt compelled to find out more about you and your work.
You truly have got your message out to the world.
Forever grateful,
David x
Pam-there are no words that can help you-it is the worst thing that could ever happen to you in this life! Know you are surrounded by love and prayers and that Taz will be with you and carry you! I love reading you because you are so full of love and wonderful insights. I’m sending you lots of love and know Taz is with you! Connie
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My heart and prayers are with you and Taz. Sending loving and healing energy to wrap its arms around you and hold you tight. May all your deep wisdom of this Universe help to give you some level of comfort and support and also the knowledge that so many people send you so much love and gratitude for the beautiful gifts of yourselves you both who have shared with the world.
Love and peace, Lisa
Dear Pam, My heart is so heavy and with yours. My God Squad group will be praying for you and Taz. Why does God take the Brightest Stars amongst us? Light Within, Light Above, Light all Around You. Is Heaven so in need of Taz’ LIGHT when the World too, seeks to pull her back to shine her resplendency in all the World’s Shadows. I will be praying for you to hold strength, hold faith, hold to the Eternal Promise that He has Given to Each of Us in knowing that Love and Life are Everlasting. Sending you so much Love, dear Pam. So. Much. LOVE. Always. Christine
Pam if you see this please contact Dr Isaam Nemeh in Ohio. He will be able to help your daughter. Look him up on Internet. He had healed many like your daughter with a phone call.
Lori, I looked this person up on YouTube. Very interesting. Thanks for suggesting.
Dear Pam, I hope you know that you are loved by so many, with enormous love.
Isabelle
Burgundy, France
Words fail. Sending love, love, love. <3
We never know the length of our days. Just as God gave you the perfect child, He gave Taz the perfect mother. I can only imagine your pain and grief as my youngest daughter (same age) is finally in alcohol and drug rehab and today 65 days clean & sober.
Only a few years ago your kind words led me to never taking for granted my next breath, and your legions of followers will help you take the next breath, the next minute, the next second.
My Brother faithfully follows you and sends your posts to me on a regular basis. I don’t always have time to read them but this one I opened. I lost a 29 year old son a little over a year ago and I feel your pain. Like me you will push through and find peace once get past grieving. I still think of him every day and of course in my world have conversations with him as if he were in the flesh. Big hugs to you Pam, you’re an amazing person and mom.
Sorry to hear about your daughter Pam. Sending you both so much love. Your perfect daughter has a perfect mum! You are incredible, inspiring and please don’t forget that! I remember reading Thank and Grow rich and thinking I love how genuine and authentic she is…. and that you are such a beautiful huge beam of light, thank you for sharing it with us all.
Only love.
Dear Pam: I lost my dear son, Anthony, at age 36, 3 years ago this month. My heart goes out to you as I have some idea of your pain. You and Taz are in my prayers.
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YOU ARE SO LOVED.
Dearest Pam,
I’d been a lot about you these past couple of days; wondering why there’d been no posts and thinking that such a long silence from you was so unusual.
And then tonight you popped into my thoughts again and I began to troll through my mail…..
I am so very sorry.
Sending you love x
Sending you love, light and peace…and hugs, because no words help at a time like this
Pam- I am praying for you. Sending love! Jenifer
Pam, your words have given me motivation and strength to stay the course (in miracles). Hearing your stories of Tasman have been part of this. We’re all in this together. Endless love to you both
My heart goes out to you Pam. My oldest daughter passed 25 years ago at 32. My granddaughter, age 14, 12 years. And my husband, age 90 (yes, he had a good long life, but grief doesn’t know that.), two weeks ago. Some days my grief is overwhelming. But I know where they all are and know they are not their bodies.
There are no words….sending healing love.
Sending love and light to you right now.
I am SOOO Sorry…I can’t even begin to imagine your pain… May peaceful love & light surround you…
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Dear Pam,
It is the seeming permanence of Taz’s departure from your physical life that makes it seem so intense.
But this too is false.
Consider the closeness of your relationship and you will realize you must’ve said goodbye before (probably many times) and so will join together once again.
This has been the case for my wife, Cindy, and me according to details volunteered by several Readers over the years – and I’m also certain – of you and Taz.
BTW: We have one child, Ciara, a daughter, whom has also been with us before. She’ll be 30 on 1111, and Cindy’s birthday is 222.
Here is today’s quote from Alan Cohen: “Faith is what we do between miracles” – Source unknown.
a beautiful post
Pam! You have been like family since i first discovered your books. Your loss is my loss. I’m heartbroken. Taz, Mum.. rest with the angels. Sending you Pam so much love and comfort.🙏
You and your beautiful Taz are in my heart. Thank you for reminding us that love is the only thing that matters. “What is essential is invisible to the eye.” Antoine de Saint-Exupery, Author The Little Prince
Dearest Pam. I weep and rejoice but also weep much. From one Mum to another.Much Much Love. xx
So deeply sorry for you Pam. I didnt take this in properly before. I do KNOW that Taz goes on and will be always with you. Small consolation now though. So much love!!!
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DearPam Every minute you will be flooded with outpourings of love. I had to join the army of love soldiers out here holding you up, carrying you. The one true thing we can do to express the gratitude we have for you.💜💜
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Holding you both in love and compassion. Both of your strengths and love are all encompassing.
Pam,
There are no words… my heart breaks for you… sending you love, strength, comfort and peace.
O Pam, much much love to you & Taz…. Always! <3 <3 <3
Dearest Pam
When I felt down I would go.to your website to read all the uplifting words you give us.I am so sorry for your loss.Sending a thousand miles of eternal love and gratitude to you.
Darryl
Dearest Pam, Thank you for being you, and for all the empowering articles you share and provide. May you experience support, comfort and love in your grief.
Surrounding you with so much love and light.
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Oh my gosh, Pam!! I am so sorry to hear about this. Thank you for an amazing post. I fell in love with your daughter reading it. Sending you love and peace and space to process.
Rip
Dearest Pam,
I was thinking you hadn’t dropped into my inbox of late but I knew you would again when the timing was right. I am absolutely overwhelmed by your last post and my heart is in my mouth with emotion ~ it was all right there ~ the loss, the grief, the confusion, the understanding, the anger, the love .. O the love … this is truly how to love another. I don’t know what or how to say but I knew that I just had to make contact and send you so much love, to you and your girl. Love all ways x
Karen Maxwell
Kundalini Yoga Teacher, sound therapist Shiatsu & Thai Yoga massage Practitioner, Accredited Counsellor,
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My heart aches with you. Thank you for all the joy you have provided me through your writings. I wish I could send the love back to you. You have no idea how you have helped me. Sending a vibrational hug and an envelope of love to you and your amazing daughter. Wishing you peace and strength during your time of grief. You are an amazing person and Taz is a reflection of that. Much love
All I can say is thank you for not only sharing your wisdom and spirit with us but your journey with your beautiful daughter. And now we get to share with you all the love and appreciation for you both. All the best on your continuing journey. Lots of love and comfort are gently draped around you.
I cried many tears when I learned of the passing of your beautiful daughter and best friend. She chose to come into this world through you Pam. She sure knew what she was doing! Great choice Taz! 25 years is such a short stay here on Planet Earth, but I reckon she had to leave you because she has important work to do somewhere else. Big Hugs Pam
Pam, I don’t know any other way to let you know that your daughter and you are in my thoughts almost daily for a complete healing for her and comfort and peace for you.
Sheryl Tiseth
My heart aches for your loss yet she shone such a bright light in this world. She has gone to better things. Sending you love, hugs and a mountain of peace. xx
I am so sorry. It’s an astounding loss. Much much love to you. There is a beautiful sacred sound called HU (pronounced “hue”) – it is of love, for love, and maybe it could help. You can write it, sing it, say it, imagine it. Thank you for sharing your story.
Oh, Pam. I missed this column last week. I was absorbed doing something or other and didn’t get to my email searching for you until now. As I read your words, and then also this week’s posting (October 29) and saw all the magical pictures of your Taz and you, I am so moved – with grief, with love, with compassion, with empathy. I, too, have been gifted with the best daughter – I was a single mum for 17 years (now married to a marvelous man who treats my child as his own). When you have been graced with a child of grace, you cherish each moment and know you are blessed. I am so grateful that you have such a solid foundation with Course in Miracles, are supported by so many loving friends, and all of us who have read your amazingly wonderful, funny, hopeful books and columns are surrounding you with love and light. May all of this keep you in love as you travel this new part of your journey – honoring the grief, pain and sadness as well as the joy and gratitude of Taz having been here on the planet with you and all those whose lives she touched while here. So, so much love to you ~
Dear Pam, I missed your emails last week. Never in a million years did I consider something like this as the reason for your silence. My heart goes out to you and Taz. She looks simply amazing and awesome. I hope that all the love and care of all the people that love you and are around you will carry you through this really difficult time. She is with you ALWAYS!!
I am so so sorry for this loss. I am a single mother of one daughter who is 21 and my heart is hurting so badly for you right now. I am sending you every bit of love I can
I am so sorry for your loss…Something no mother wants to experience…I wish you love and healing.
Jeanne
Dear Pam,
My heart aches for you. I know your heart will always be full of wonderful memories of your dear daughter. Many hugs to you.
Fantastic post, nice read
Hi Pam I have No words. I am in tears & had the thought maybe in some way I’m crying out a sliver of the heaviness & heartache & grief with you & for you. You’re not alone & love is a powerful force. I’m so sorry that you’re experiencing this. I know you’ll make it through. 💗
Joy is strength ❤️ Erin Kelly Licensed Massage Therapist & Yoga Instructor (773) 569-1015
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When you feel grief, and it feels overwhelming, remember to focus on what you love most about Taz. We move through the grief stage faster when we remember to focus on the love. When we focus on the loss, we feel the grief. So keep focusing on all of the wonderful reasons why you love your daughter so much.
Sending energy your way.
Great post!
Heartbroken for you at the loss of your beloved daughter.
I have never had a child. I cannot imagine what you are going through now. My love goes out to you, Pam.
You have my sympathy, my empathy, and my prayer. My older son died at 27 from an aneurysm. My heart breaks for you.
I am so very sorry. Your emails and blog have often lifted me when I’ve been down and she’d light in the dark. May someone do the same for you
Sending you so much love
sending you big love pam… another angel has been added on earth….
Love and light to you Pam xo 222 xo
I am touched deeply and warmly. May Mother Nature embrace you with Love and Light.
With deep respect for your courage to hold to the highest and brightest thoughts and Ideas we can share on this plane. There is no Death… we are free, we just move from here to there. I’m sure of this. You are a light to us all. Blessings Pam
I follow you and do not know how I missed this. You and Taz have become my close friends, your giving 5 dollars bills out and offering joy and love to strangers. Your encouragement and now amazing bravery. Of course she is with Wayne Dyer and Nikola Tesla and all the amazing energy forces! I know you are more aware then anyone that we are spirits in a human form and we will never really cease to be! Taz is with you always, your fans and friends love you and feel your loss. It is my wish that you know how much you are loved by so many now and always.
Dearest Pam…think of you so often and hope you are doing as well as can be expected…please update all of fans and friends who truly care about you.
Mary
I am so sorry for the sudden loss of your daughter!! Sending healing light and love to the both of you.
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