My 2021 travel plans

“Look for the little hints of magic glittering at the corners of your life.”–Martha Beck

As a grounded travel writer, I’ve had to use my imagination this year. Instead of exploring new countries, I’ve traipsed through my little town’s 54 parks. Instead of elephants on the savannahs of Africa, I’ve oohed, I’ve aahed over giant local tortoises. I’ve hugged a lot of trees—which, believe it or not, often hug me back.

But mostly, I’m practicing living in magical realms. In different dimensions that have always been here, but I’m frequently too busy to notice.

It takes some dislodging of old patterns, of recognizing that looks can be deceiving. Readers of my books know I have a thing for quantum physics. Studying the science behind what I think of as “reality” helps me escape the trap of form. As I said in E-Squared, the material world “aint what it’s cracked up to be.”

Rather than detracting from life, learning about my illusions actually enhances it. I’ve said it before, but I have to keep reminding myself that nothing is solid. Physicists exposed that fallacy more than 100 years ago. Things we see are 99.999999999 percent empty space.

Those “things” we think we see out there, according to David Bohm, are “a phenomenon of connecting light rays which go back and forth, freezing them into a pattern.” Our brains literally make up a story based on our frozen patterns. Everything is actually energy.

Even my body is not solid or stable. At a cellular level, it’s in constant flux. My stomach lining is replaced every five days. Skin is reformed every two weeks. I have a completely new set of lungs than I did six months ago. The very oldest cells in my body are at most 10 years old—which, come to think of it, could explain my behavior at times.

At an atomic level, this turnover occurs at breakneck velocities. And my eyes trick me. As one rather startling example, this big rock known as Planet Earth is whizzing through the galaxy at 67,000 miles per hour.

Which gets me to the headline of this post. Rather than depending on what my eyes show me—an illusory world at best—I’m leaning in to the kingdom of magic, the world of infinite potentiality where anything and everything is possible. Once I let go of my brain’s many fabrications, I begin to notice all kinds of miraculous things. Perfect solutions show up. New adventures (which can be had anywhere, at any time) unfurl before me. I even get messages from Taz who according to conventional old school thinking is nowhere to be had.

Starting tomorrow, like I always do, I’ll begin Lesson #1 from A Course in Miracles. The first 50 lessons are there to help me unravel illusions, to transcend the fear that insists my number one goal should be protecting the body. I’m reading a wonderful book by a Buddhist teacher who suggests repeating this four-word mantra: “This is a dream.”

I’ve been repeating it a lot and even saying it “out loud.” It’s amazing how much lighter everything feels when I approach life this way, when I recognize that all my problems are just fascinating dramas that I literally concocted out of empty space and frozen light patterns.

Perhaps the children’s song, “Row, Row, Row Your Boat” says it best. “Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily. Life is but a dream.”

That merry river is where I’ll be in 2021. I hope to see you there. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

Planting the magical seeds of intention

“The intangible represents the real power of the universe. From it springs all life and power and the love of all.”—Bruce Lee

Just a quick note on this last weekend before Christmas.

My Qigong experience has been ABSOLUTELY AMAZING. It has helped me embody the energy I write about in all my books. I loved learning that even scientists recognize that 96 percent of the universe is completely invisible. All the really important stuff is indiscernible to the naked eye.

To focus on the physical (that measly four percent) is to completely miss the boat. In E-Squared, I compared it to putting all your attention on a fingernail. We must remind ourselves over and over again: There is SO MUCH MORE.

A few things I’ve learned:

1.Eliminate the word chronic. Nothing is chronic except our thoughts that expect things (our bodies, lives, etc) to be repeat copies of yesterday. Life and energy is always moving and it only becomes chronic when we let our energy become stagnant.

2. Get out of the way. Just like I don’t have to think about digestion (my stomach, pancreas and other digestive organs do it without me coming up with a 7-point plan), my life works best when I don’t monitor it, when I allow the unfathomable life force to have its way.

3. Marvel at the energy field. As the Course in Miracles repeats ad nauseum, I am not a body. I am free. So my physicality (my body during this lifetime) is just one blip of the bigger field of who I am. This has helped me reframe my relationship with Taz.

I’ve noticed myself lately thinking, “Wonder what Taz is doing?” When she was in Barcelona, I’d have the same thought, knowing I’d see her again, knowing we were forever connected.

It brings peace to think of her enjoying a new dimension, a place I will one day enjoy, as well. I don’t know exactly where that is or what it’s like. But it makes me excited to know I’ll one day find out.

As Rob Delaney recently said on the BBC, we’re all just temporary gatherings of stardust anyway.

It is my staggering privilege to be here with all of you beautiful gatherings of stardust and I hereby plant the magical seed of intention that each and every one of your holidays will be meaningful, blessed and full of ginormous love.

Signing out from a tiny town somewhere in Kansas.

Have the best holiday season of your life. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into a badass app.

Diving into the quantum playground

“When one is still and listens, one begins to be in touch with a mysterious element that is within each of us, which can transform and shape us and can help to transform the world.” — William Segal

So I’m participating in this Qi Gong experience for the next two weeks. There are 175 of us from 15 countries. It feels holy, as if, together, we are creating a field of healing, of peace and and of love.

We’re going beyond the Newtonian realm of form and hooking into the unseen.

As Cynthia Li, a San Francisco M.D., said in our opening session, “We’re not defying nature’s laws. We’re tapping into higher laws.”   

Qi (sometimes written as “chi”) is basically a synonym for the energy I talk about in E-Squared. It’s invisible, therefore making it a little harder to trust for some folks, but in Qigong, we tap into both the visible, earthly dimensions of energy and the formless subtle dimensions that form the blueprint of our lives.

Most of us, of course, use blueprints we downloaded from our parents, from our culture. That wouldn’t be so bad except most of it focuses on limitations, on scarcity, on what we can’t do. Qi focuses on what we can.

The energy field Qi Gong taps into is an embodied energy that opens us up to what scientists call Dark Matter and Dark Energy. I know dark sounds well, kinda dark. But it’s really just the 96 percent of the universe that we can’t see. Astronomers know it’s there based on its gravitational influence on the four percent we can see: all the stars, planets and galaxies.

They can confirm its existence using computer models, but they still, 40 years later, can’t figure out what it actually is or what it’s made of. All they really know is there’s an invisible force that affects the velocities of stars and other phenomena in the universe. As science writer Richard Panek explains, “It’s on a cosmic scale so weird astronomers couldn’t even believe it at first.”

Well I, for one, believe it, tend to call it “The Dude” and plan to spend the rest of my earthly life tapping into its miraculous properties. As yet another scientist, Albert Einstein, said, “I only want to know God’s thoughts. The rest is just details.”

Speaking of details, applications for the 2021 grant of Taz Grout’s 222 Foundation will be accepted through December 31. If you or someone you know has a big idea that can change the consciousness of the world, send it to taz.grout.222.foundation@gmail.com.

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) has been turned into an app.

Break on through–there’s another side

“Every day should be devoted to miracles.”—A Course in Miracles

Perhaps this year’s biggest blessing was the chance to practice the Course in Miracles adage, “I need do nothing.”

It’s one of those Course principles that is THE EXACT OPPOSITE of all we’re indoctrinated to believe. From the moment of birth, we’re trained that it’s all up to us. Rules, expectations, you gotta keep up with the Kardashians.

But what I’ve discovered during this year of hibernation is that blessings haven’t stopped just because I’ve slowed down. Money still shows up. Miracles keep happening. It’s mind-blowing all the things a person can attract from a small home in Kansas. Like yesterday, I got an email from a big shot New York money manager who wants to help with the 222 Foundation.

A tech-savvy whiz from Tasmania offered to create an app with the lessons from my Course in Miracles book. Even better is I finally got the title and the design I wanted.

When it launched this week, I was so thrilled to discover that one of the creators experienced a healing while working on it. As her thinking was being rewritten (that’s what the Course does), she literally “did nothing” to eliminate her chronic pain. It simply disappeared. As the Course says, “No exercise is urged except a deep relinquishment of everything that clutters up the mind.”

So here’s Erika’s story along with a link for those who want to join us in following through on the Course lessons this coming year.  

Take it away, Erika.  

“Early this year I slipped two discs in my back and had sciatica… excruciating chronic pain which left me lying in bed barely able to walk for months. It also led to my redundancy at work. I ended up in chronic pain at 41 years old, unemployed and at a loose end of not knowing what to do with my life. A perfect storm to fall into feeling like a victim that was down and out of luck.

“It wasn’t a fun place! In the meantime, my partner Phoenix offered to create an app around Pam’s Course in Miracles for Baddasses.

“When I helped work on the app, the pain just poof..evaporated! It was indeed a miracle! As I was typing and formatting the lessons for app form, it was like doing ACIM for Baddasses on steroids!! My head would swim with all the new knowledge. My consciousness needed time to catch up so I had to take days off in between just to let it all sink in otherwise my head would explode. 

“As I kept working on the app, my back healed much quicker than expected surprising both my physiotherapist and doctor. My mindset had shifted rapidly and my consciousness was expanding every day.

“Now I’m completely healed without needing surgery and pain free!

“Four months ago I launched a new business making ‘period pants’ for dogs on heat combining my loves of design, sewing and dogs. It was an idea I had ticking around for a year or so. Why didn’t I act on it before? I just never believed I could do it! And besides who would have thought you could start a successful business in the middle of a global pandemic?! Making pants for dogs of all things! Anyone would think you’re crazy  BUT of course you can…if that’s your reality bubble. My business continues to thrive and attract wonderful customers and I love it!

“Change comes from the inside out! Change how you think and it will change your reality. This book and now app is truly a blessings that will change so many lives as it has mine. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!”

And thank you, Erika, and Phoenix for helping ME prove that “I need do nothing.” I don’t have to be good enough. I don’t have to fight. I don’t have to struggle. I just have to, as the Doors so wisely sang, “Break on Through to the Other Side.”

If you’re interested, here’s the link for the app. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World).

Is there confetti in your pocket?

“We are the promise of one people, one breath declaring to one another: I see you. I need you. I am you.”—Richard Blanco

I often share stories from my inbox, miracle stories that, as I’ve mentioned, often begin with “You are NEVER going to believe this.”

Today, I’m going to share a couple stories from my most important teachers—kids who, before they’re taught to “be careful” and “act responsible,” know the important stuff.

When I was out walking the other day, I ran into a family of 5. The youngest boy spotted a fuzzy caterpillar on a tree. Rapt with this amazing creature, he waved his parents over who dutifully “oohed” and “aahed” until finally they had to call him off, “C’mon, we gotta go.” The little boy, lingering a bit longer, leaned down to the caterpillar and said, “Goodbye. I love you.”

My other teacher is a little boy whose mother shared this story on Twitter. He was buckled into the backseat of the car when he asked, “Is it okay to throw the confetti in my pocket?”

“What?” she exclaimed. “Why do you have confetti in your pocket?”

Nonplussed, he answered. “It’s emergency confetti. I carry it everywhere in case there’s good news.”

This Thanksgiving season, I plan to share my love with caterpillars and trees and to keep confetti in my pocket because good news is everywhere when I decide to look for it. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World).

Behind the scenes, everything’s working on your behalf

“The only election that really matters? The one in your head. Do you vote for love or fear?”—A tweet I posted a couple weeks ago

On September 1992, just days after his dad died, Matthew McConaughey sat on his top bunk in the Delta Tau Delta fraternity and jotted down 10 life aspirations in a diary. At the time, he was waiting tables at Austin’s Catfish Station. So when he listed the lofty goal of winning an Oscar for Best Actor, there wasn’t a lot of evidence pointing in that direction.   

The reason I tell you this story is not because McConaughey started spouting affirmations and pasting photos on a vision board. Fact is, he never looked at the list again…until he was digging through old journals and diaries to start his memoir, Greenlights.

I like these reminders that behind the scenes, even when I’m totally unaware of it, miracles and blessings are being orchestrated on my behalf. At the exact same time a psychotic parade of crazy thoughts screeches, “Eeks! Oh no!,” there’s a natural expansion taking place. Just like my heart continues to beat, my lungs continue to take in oxygen.

This Divine presence isn’t something I have to develop or create. It’s there, happening whether I’m paying attention or not. It’s who I am despite my thoughts that have a tendency to scream “FIRE!!”  

Thoughts (which just keep marching by) are random and have no real substance unless I decide to log into them. Just like my Netflix screen shows 3 gazillion potential movies, I only see the ones I click. And like McConaughey proved, the best tact for making something happen in your life is “set it and forget it.”

I was being interviewed the other day by Light Watkins, a wonderful meditation teacher who posted an early video of the Einstein wands I wrote about in E-Squared. He asked if I ever go back and read my own words. Hmm.

And then, because the universe keeps spreading bread crumbs even when I’m not paying attention, I got a notice that Mrs. Kasha Davis, a drag queen from RuPaul’s Drag Race, was reading my book Thank and Grow Rich in her story time. And because the universe wasn’t taking any chances, I received a wonderful card (in the mail, no less) from a reader whose posse reads Thank and Grow Rich every November.

Okay, universe, I get the hint and the reminder from my own book that if I struggle (because I think nothing will change unless I do) or log into the parade of noise in my head, I erect roadblocks to the natural joy and expansion that’s doing its thing 24/7.

My sole assignment is to lighten up, to have fun, to play around in the quantum sandbox. So this Thanksgiving week, I hope you’ll join me in giving yourself a break, counting your blessings and getting on the frequency of joy and gratitude.

And if you feel like listening to the interview with Light (he also recently interviewed the incredible Ava DuVernay and wrote a fabulous book that I happily endorsed called Bliss More), click this link right here. Light is a GREAT interviewer.

Have a fabulous week, my friends. Who knows? I may even check in later this week with a few excerpts from my book on shameless gratitude and unabashed joy. #222 Forever

 Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World).

I want to give money away: Now taking pitches for the 2021 award of the Taz Grout 222 Foundation

“If you have love in your heart, then your very life will bring about a transformation of society.”—Krishnamurti

It’s that time of year, my friends, when I take pitches for the 222 Foundation I started to honor my magical daughter, Tasman McKay Grout, who died in 2018 from a cerebral aneurysm.

As I’ve written before, Taz landed here on planet earth with indiscriminate and generous love.  She was beautiful, brilliant, had wild light running through every cell.

To honor her vision, the 222 Foundation is committed to changing the dream of the modern world from consumption and acquisition to the more meaningful pursuit of creativity and self-expression. We believe happiness comes from human solidarity, simple living, respect for nature and the empowerment of all people.

Here are the guidelines for the yearly award:

Each year on February 22 (2/22), Taz Grout’s 222 Foundation will award a $10,222 grant to an innovative project or person with a big idea to change consciousness and therefore the world.

We look for projects that support the following ideas:

1. All people long to be generous and create beautiful things.

2. The story of scarcity, lack and the need to fight for resources was made up and is no longer valid. We aim to prove that, once liberated from outdated paradigms, the world is generative and endlessly abundant.

3. We believe all humans are interconnected and that even tiny actions have great significance.

The more creative the project, the more likely it is to be chosen.  In the past, we’ve funded a coffee shop in India run by survivors of acid attacks, a forest of 2222 trees (hey, every tree helps), a school in Nepal and a random acts of money project in the Pacific Northwest. The 222 Foundation also gave away grants of $222 to the favorite charity of the first 22 folks willing to post a Stay-at-Home dance during the beginning of the pandemic. I particularly loved that project because it involved all my favorite things: dancing, creativity, making a difference and spreading joy.

In the 5-week Laddership Pod I just finished with ServiceSpace, I met dozens of folks from all over the world who are doing beautiful things. I learned about an NGO that builds schools out of discarded plastic water bottles and another that figured out how to purify water using plastic bottles and the sun. These projects appeal to me because they incorporate the Course in Miracles maxim about “the holiest places on earth being where an ancient hatred becomes a present love.” And while my dislike of plastic water bottles isn’t exactly ancient (although I get closer to that description every day), it certainly represents a letting go of judgment, a transformation of, at least, my consciousness.  

Above all, the 222 Foundation is committed to generating new possibilities.  

Next year’s grant will be awarded in less than four months on February 22 (2/22).

If you or anyone you know has an idea to help bring about a change in consciousness, please consider applying for the 2021 grant. It’s easy to apply. Just send a description of your big idea to taz.grout.222.foundation@gmail.com.

I hope you, my friends here on the blog, will help spread the word.

Also for your listening pleasure, I’m posting my new favorite song by the indie band Cloud Cult whose music is informed by Kaidin Minowa, whose two short years on the planet has transformed countless lives.

And as always, go out there and have the VERY BEST weekend of your life. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World).

Do something remarkable today. An assignment

“You need no other authority than your good intentions and your loving heart.”—Colin Beavan

I mentioned a few weeks ago that I was participating in a Laddership Pod with 100-some people from 17 countries. One of the participants has been standing at a busy intersection in her hometown with a sign. Nothing political. Nothing controversial. It simply says “Choose Love.” She has been holding this sign every Wednesday for two years.

This might sound like a simple thing, but the ripples from this one tiny action are immense. Articles have been written, minds have been widened. Who knows? Maybe someone saw the sign and decided against some mean and ugly thing they were secretly plotting.

The thing is we can’t know how our actions might positively benefit someone we don’t even know.

This week, another one of the participants from our pod lost her precious mother. As a tribute, many in our pod decided to follow Ruth’s lead and hold up our own “Choose Love” sign, in many countries around the world. These signs will be turned into a collage and sent to our friend in honor of her mother.

At the top of this post is the one I made yesterday (and held from 5 to 6). As you can see, I even roped in a few local friends to help in my gleeful scheme.

Yesterday was two years since Taz had her completely unexpected aneurysm. I could very easily have set around moping. I’ve certainly done my fair share of that. But instead, I did the very thing Taz would have done—I created something fun and spread a little joy.

I didn’t spend any money (well, a few bucks for the poster board), didn’t feel sorry for myself. I just got out there and put some merriment out into the world.

So here’s the assignment. Quit fretting about the coronavirus or the election or any other worry that currently lives rent-free in your head. Instead, make a sign. What would you like to broadcast to the world?

Scientists at Rensselaer Polytechnic Institute recently published a paper that says it takes but 10 percent of a population to create a tipping point. A very small number of impassioned people really COULD turn this ship around.

So make your sign, snap a photo, post it here on the blog and if you REALLY want to make merry, be brave and take it out to the streets. It could just change your life. #222 Forever!

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World).

A Friday gift from Taz and me and Martha Beck

“There is no time for despair, no place for self-pity, no need for silence, no room for fear. We speak, we write, we do language. That is how civilizations heal.”—Toni Morrison

The new “cover” for the Course in Miracles app that debuts soon.

A couple days ago, I wrote about how Taz radically changed my life.  Martha Beck, who I met years ago when we were both speaking at a writer’s conference, also had a child who upended everything she thought she knew.

I decided to catch up with Martha and discovered three miracle stories that I feel indebted to share.

Fair warning. They’re all a little woo-woo, but as Martha says, the law of attraction is “inane and bizarre, but it keeps working for me.”

Recently, she’s been “attracting” animals. Like the Nature vs. News experiment I wrote about in E-Cubed, Martha gets most of her important intel from the natural world. And this is a woman with three degrees from Harvard.

She noticed lately that when she imagines a certain animal, it shows up. She was driving across the wide expanse of Wyoming and thought, “I’d love to see a pronghorn antelope.”

She’d never seen one and because it’s the only antelope native to the U.S., she wanted to rectify that glaring deficiency. Almost numb from a long day of driving, she noticed what she called a “smudge” on the horizon. So she stopped her car. As the smudge got closer, it turned into a giant herd of pronghorn antelopes, whipping up dust as it galloped across the open plain. This herd screeched to a halt right in front of her car and stood there for a while. She said she cried.

“These are the kind of things that should not happen in the mechanistic world,” she said. “But they do.”

Another time, she was in Sedona, Arizona for a quick meeting. She thought to herself, I’ve always wanted to see a javelina, but it was an “in and out” trip with no time to tour or do anything so “oh well.”

She and her assistant were in the hotel suite doing the interview when they heard a knock on the door. The assistant goes to the door and screams, “It’s a pig.”

Sure enough, it was a javelina (how does a Labrador-sized pig knock on a door?) that was soon joined by a whole family of javelina.

“These things shouldn’t be happening according to Newton’s worldview,” she says.

The last thing I want to share is a video Martha created. I love it so much, mainly because she puts into words the answer to a question I’ve been pondering (and I know some of you have been pondering) for a very long time.  What in the heck is happening in our world?

Enjoy, my friends. And, as always, go out and have the VERY BEST weekend of your life. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World).

Why it’s time to widen the aperture

“Arrive curious, without the armor of certainty. Live the life that chooses you, new with every breath, every blink of your astonished eyes.”—Rebecca del Rio

Tomorrow is Tasman’s birthday. She would have been 27.

I strongly believe she came to me 27 years ago as an act of great love. I was a 37-year-old singleton who desperately needed a monster lesson in loving with my whole heart.

I was a, let’s just say, wishy-washy creator who needed a reason to fully commit to being responsible and going for my dreams.

At the time I discovered I was pregnant, I was making it (sorta) as a freelance writer. I had my moments of glory, getting a few good-paying assignments with Travel+Leisure, Modern Bride (ironic since I had always been single) and the Washington Post. I was dabbling in travel writing and more or less following my whims. Nothing wrong with whims, but it was clearly time for me to do something more substantial.

I’d struggled with commitment to one man so Taz, entering my life as a tiny human totally dependent on me, became the soul mate I so acutely desired.

Thanks to her, I buckled down on my spiritual practice. I turned my career, my parenting, my entire life over to The Dude. I’ve written before about how painfully clear it was that I needed to see things differently, to let go of all the limitations I’d placed upon myself, to well, widen my aperture.

If I was truly going to make it as a writer, the dream I’d long pursued, and if I was going to properly care for this beautiful soul who could have chosen a two-parent household, a bigger bank account, a caregiver with a more stable career, it was pretty obvious I needed to shape up.

I am forever grateful that she and her infinite love chose me anyway. She believed in me in a way I didn’t. She gave me a flesh and blood reason to become the person I always wanted to be. In short, she inspired me to completely rewire and rewrite my life.

Many in my circle, after hearing the surprising news that this gypsy was going to be a parent, encouraged me to seek a more stable profession, something with regular hours and benefits.

But to truly be a good example to my new soulmate, I felt I needed to go for the whole enchilada—to carve my own path, to follow my urgings to honor the gifts I was given. Yes, I would have to write consistently, become disciplined, but writing consistently is what I LOVE to do. Plus freelance writing gave me space and time to be there for Taz.

The most significant change required was for me to surrender old paradigms and ways of seeing the world. I had to rely completely and humbly, not on my own smarts or talent, but on the bigger force that continuously whispers to me, the force that wants to guide, bless and interact with all of us.  

Every day, I repeated this affirmation:

Into my will, let there pour strength.

Into my feeling, let there flow warmth,

Into my thinking, let there shine light

That I may nurture this child, Tasman McKay Grout,

With enlightened purpose,

Caring with heart’s love

and bringing wisdom to all things.

In a week, it will be two years since Taz joined the cosmic love team or what we often call the “other side.”  I’m still getting my equilibrium after this shattering loss. But this I can say with complete certainty:

My gorgeous, brilliant daughter who was always the wisest person in any room still lives within my every thought, my every breath, my every heartbeat.

So thank you, Taz, for choosing me, for overlooking my shortcomings and for inspiring me to be a better person. I feel it in my bones that this lifetime was one of many we’ve experienced together.

I will love you forever. I’m excited about the upcoming 222 Foundation award and for the day we meet up again, unencumbered by the illusion of these fallible bodies. Happy magical birthday, my love. #222 Forever.

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World).