The one who will catch me

“Let me fall if I must fall. The one I am becoming will catch me.”–Baal Shem Tov1 d

Many years before Garry Shandling made his transition, he had a NEAR transition, commonly called an NDE. In 1977, he was in a car accident, in critical condition and in a hospital for two weeks with a ruptured spleen. He remembers a voice and a very clear choice: “Do you want to stay and continue being Garry Shandling?”

Lately, I’ve been asking myself a similar question. Thankfully, mine doesn’t involve wrecks or death or crushed spleens, but I’ve been wondering what I want to do with this collection of molecules named Pam Grout.

The current arrangement seems rather static, wooden, even a bit boring. Maybe it’s my dad’s death. Maybe it’s because I’m not currently writing a book. My thoughts are restless, ready for a change.

At the same time, as I observe my thoughts and notice there is disappointment, sadness, lack of clarity, I also know there is a bigger part of me woven into the despair. This other part is much wiser, much more loving. It’s working behind the scenes with this message: “Relax. I got this. Just fall into my arms.”

That’s what ACIM Lesson 134 is trying to tell me.

I am not my thoughts.

To forgive is recognizing my thoughts are not the rock solid truths I believe them to be. To forgive is to recognize their flimsiness, to simply watch them as they disappear into the native nothingness from which they came.

This lesson also emphasizes that I don’t have to fight to save myself or kill dragons or erect heavy walls to make myself safe.

All I have to do is rest in the loving arms of “the one I am becoming” who is already here, probably with a big net, ready to catch me.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon

The gameboard of awareness and consciousness

“Authentic spirituality is not some little flicker or buzz of knowingness, but a vast fire of liberation providing both heat and light for what must be done.” –Robert Augustus Masters

spiral-game1Our beliefs shape and mold the reality that plays out in our lives. These beliefs, both conscious and unconscious, drive our feelings, our actions and our inner commentary.

For example, if your belief game piece is currently stuck on the square of victim consciousness (“Things happen TO me,” “Life sucks and then you die” are a few standard beliefs on this square), you can affirm and intend all you want, but your beliefs, the guy driving the bus of your reality, will end up getting the last word.

When you spend most of your waking hours on that game board square (it’s extremely popular), your channels are plugged up. All the good that wants to come your way can’t get through.

ACIM Lesson 129 reminds us that there are more squares on the game board of consciousness, other squares that can bring us great joy, fulfillment and satisfaction.

For the purpose of this discussion, I’ve broken it down into four major squares of consciousness. Each of these squares has dozens of subsets, all that play out in different ways in our lives. Let’s just say that my goal is to move my game piece closer to level four.

1. “The damn, not again” consciousness. The starting gate for most of us is some manifestation of victim consciousness. It varies from person to person, but the over-arching theme is we have no control over anything that happens in our life. The best we can do is work really hard, cross our fingers and hope that all the “sh*t” we hear about out there will somehow escape us.

2. “The woo-hoo! This is getting cool!” consciousness. One of the next levels (again it plays out differently in each person) is where we realize we have a say. We learn there are energetic laws that are just as reliable as physical laws. We discover that our thoughts are units of mental energy that play out in the world just as powerfully as the principles of gravity or aerodynamics.

Usually we move in and out of this square of consciousness, mixing it up with other squares. We still feel separate and still retain some of that “poor me” consciousness. In fact, we spend nearly as much time talking about what we don’t want as what we do. We still believe the things we want are out there, in the future, something we have to strive for.

3. The “Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.” consciousness. This is where you know you’re blessed, when you start noticing signs, gifts and guidance, when you know the universe is working on your behalf. This is when it gets really good, when you start finding the joy in everything—the cute little heart the barista made into the foam on your latte, the softness of the cashmere sweater you pull over your head.

4. “I am one with all” consciousness. In this consciousness square, which I must admit is not yet a 24/7 theme for moi, there is no sense of separation from anything. This consciousness knows it is one with Source. It knows you are an unlimited being, hooked up with all that is.

In this consciousness square, everything is eternal and everything else (your thoughts, your reality) is subservient to this bottom-line spiritual Truth. When we’re lucky enough to view life from this consciousness, we are totally surrendered to the “all that is” and know nothing is missing from our life.

And, in fact, by yielding to that consciousness, by giving it permission to play out in our lives, we come to realize that all those little intentions and manifestations we so dutifully held in our consciousness are small potatoes compared to this. It’s so much bigger and grander and woo-hoo’er than anything we could have ever imagined.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.

More than a random configuration of molecules

“There is a place in you where you have never been wounded, where there’s still a sureness, where there’s a seamlessness, and where there is a confidence and tranquility. And I think the intention of prayer and spirituality and love is now and again to visit that inner kind of sanctuary.”—John O’Donohue
So I got this comment yesterday. It started by thanking me for clarifying the lessons in A Course in Miracles, a blogging pursuit I started January 1. But it went on:

“I cannot wait to hear what you say about lesson #128, because even in my 4th year (of doing the Course in Miracles), I don’t get this one.”

Being a long-time Course student who is still puzzled by many of the lessons, I couldn’t wait to find out which one she was talking about. I actually leafed ahead. And here’s what I have to say about ACIM Lesson 128:

First of all, I glommed on to the part towards the end about asking for help, about being still and resting (always a worthwhile goal) and opening my mind to my Guide. That’s what I call the Holy S.

And then, I broke it down. The world I see holds nothing I want. The operative words are the world I SEE. Because the world I SEE is just my version of a bunch of random molecules. I’m not really Pam. Pam dies. Pam is just a made-up story, a fairytale.

My brain (like all human brains) takes in sounds and light and crafts a story that matches my beliefs and expectations. It’s not real.

Perhaps magician Derek DelGaudio said it best. In 2016, after winning Magician of the Year, he was asked how he first got interested in magic. His interviewer wanted to know if he’d seen a particular magician or a particular trick or a….

He stopped the interviewer and said, “It was never anything I saw. My imagination was captured with what I couldn’t see.”

And there you have it. The juice is what we can’t see. When we strip away the labels, the boxes, the random configuration of molecules, we find our essence.

We find the world we DO want. We find the intoxicating, invigorating, ecstasy of who we really are.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.

Don’t let the past assault your now

“We lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies.”—Jack Kerouac


Kum Back, a bootleg album packaged in a plain white jacket, rubber-stamped in red or blue ink and released in January 1970, demonstrates everything you need to know about why I go through the lessons in the Course workbook every year.

The album, sourced from a multitrack tape recording of the Beatles at Twickenham Film Studios, is an early version of Let It Be. Recorded by Glyn Johns, the band’s engineer, this unauthorized bootleg features Paul McCartney singing out of tune, John Lennon botching lyrics and more than one poorly-conceived guitar lick.

The point is the Beatles, the bestselling band in history, were far from perfect. They had to practice. In fact, by the time Beatlemania swept across the globe, the music-bending group had honed their skills at tiny clubs in Hamburg for three entire years.

They practiced over and over and over again.

Someone commented to my musician friend, Cindy Novelo, “You’re such a genius. I wish I had your talent.”

Cindy quickly responded, “Well go home, practice an hour today and every day for 20 years and you’ll have my talent.”

Letting go of my old story takes practice. My brain has been running the bootleg album–the inferior album of limitation—most of my life.

But it’s not real.

And I’m ready to let go of those ill-conceived guitar licks.

That’s why I get up every morning and flex my ACIM muscles. That’s why I get up every morning and devote my day to peace, to joy, to seeing love in everything.

ACIM Lesson 127 encourages me to free my mind. It encourages me to let go of all laws I think I must obey, to surrender all limitations in which I’ve placed my faith.

None of it is true.

The only thing that’s true is love. Love has no opposite. Love can’t change. Everyone’s included.

Today, I escape from every limitation, every cultural paradigm as I practice letting go of the past.

And before I close, thought I’d make a couple quick announcements:

1. The Hay House World Summit is underway. That’s where 100 speakers, folks like Mike Dooley, Marianne Williamson and Deepak Chopra, bestow really cool inspiration. The best part is it’s totally free. You can access it here. My interview on being on the Joy and Gratitude Frequency is available now.

2. My latest book, Art & Soul Reloaded, was chosen as an Amazon Book of the Month for May. So if you haven’t read it, you can score the Kindle version for a mere $2.49. Find it here.

Have an extraordinarily epic day, my friends.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.

Joy too deep to comprehend

“God is my boo.”— Maya Angelou

112Our eyes, as remarkable as they are, can only “see” a tiny fraction of the frequencies in the electromagnetic spectrum. To be scientific, we humans can pick up wavelengths between 10^-4 and 10^-6 of the spectrum.

That’s a pittance of what’s out there. Radio waves, infrared waves, x-rays, terahertz waves, for example, are beyond my eye’s ability to pick up.

So for me to think I see “reality” with my wavelength-challenged eyeballs is ridiculous.

ACIM Lesson 124 encourages us to view the world from a frequency, that like UV rays, is largely invisible.

Today, we celebrate the invisible God frequency. We celebrate that it’s the warp and woof of our being, the underlying foundation of who we really are.

We celebrate that, when hooked in, we are safe, protected and can fail at nothing. We celebrate that anxieties are meaningless and that power and strength are available in all our undertakings.

When hooked into the God frequency (the Course calls it remembering we are one with God) we literally change energy fields because we “see” only the loving and the lovable. Everything we touch is blessed and healed.

We find, as this lesson promises, joy too deep to comprehend.

So, whether I “see” it or not, I will continue to celebrate the God frequency that has the power to dismantle the illusion that we are separate beings living a separate existence.

Have the best weekend of your life, my friends.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.

Something extraordinarily epic is going to happen to you today

“Celebrate the madness12 dance
The joy,
Of seeing God

A Course in Miracles is about developing a different operating system, about hooking into a powerful broadband frequency through which blessings can freely flow.

Today, according to ACIM Lesson 123, is a day to celebrate how far we’ve come. It’s a day devoted to my main jam: gratitude.

So to honor all the gifts, signs and blessings the universe is constantly trying to bestow, here are a couple recent stories from my trusty inbox:

1. “I love your books and was working with Experiment #2 in E-Squared – actively looking for something specific. I chose Unicorns because I say I live in a Rainbow, Puppy Dog and Unicorn World!

“As we were driving out of the restaurant parking lot, across from a Party City, a woman walks out of the store with a Pinata – a Unicorn Pinata!!!! Thank you Universe…

“This was actually a small (and huge) confirmation – I had already asked the Universe how I could get my kitchen remodeled…. and now we are in the middle of getting new countertops, tile floor and backsplash due to a “small” water leak in a cabinet next to our refrigerator – I’m excited to see how the universe includes new appliances in the package!”

2. “Just before Easter of this year I asked the Universe for a gift. I was at a somewhat low point and so didn’t ask as boldly as I might have; fortunately, the forces that be realized I needed a showstopper.

“As a child a wonderful woman who was a lifelong friend of my parents came from the northeast to visit a few times each year. From my rural southern vantage point, Patsy was the epitome of sophistication and beauty and she showered love and attention on this shy skinny kid. I saw her regularly until around 15 years ago when she became unable to travel. Patsy always gave lovely presents and one of the last times I saw her she gave me a pair of beautiful ceramic earrings made by an area artist and evocative of purple spring flowers. Through the transitions of the years they slipped away from my possession but I recently came across the exact same earrings, still in the original box with the artist information, at a second-hand store. It felt like Patsy had come for a visit and I was somehow unsurprised that the first thing I saw the next morning was a message from her son saying that she had died during the night.

“I am so thankful to Patsy for always staying close. The reminder that time and distance are meaningless in a universe where love travels without bounds is a gift of the greatest magnitude.”

Thanks, my friends, for sharing all your magnificent blessings. As I like to say, it’s the only conversation worth having.

If you haven’t already signed up for the free Hay House World Summit that starts in 2 days, you can do it here. There may be no such thing as a free lunch, but there is this FREE amazing Summit with 100 speakers (including me). Hope to see you there.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.

Sink into happiness

“Magic is becoming the new norm.”— Bentinho M. Assaro

Forest-Bathing-1024x832It’s open window season where I live which means some of my best teachers wake me up each morning with their chorus of joy.

These teachers (most people call them birds) are out there riffing on the day, blaring songs that will never be sung in just that arrangement again. They’re not reading self-help literature or wondering how to heal their childhood wounds.

Likewise, the sun rose this morning with a brand new palette of colors. It painted a one-of-a-kind vista unique to my GPS coordinate on this big stone hurtling through space. It’s not mad at the president or worrying about nuclear war.

The natural world is my best teacher.

Those cardinals and tree frogs trilling advertisement for mates? The squirrels using my fence as a tightrope?  They’re my mentors when it comes to ACIM Lesson 122.

In a nutshell, it says, “clear your mind of all dead thoughts.”

The mother fox parading her kits alongside the road is not obsessing about work or whether or not her butt looks big.

Worry, anxiety, fear, whether or not your butt looks big—all dead thoughts.

Being sealed inside, glued to a smartphone or to a box with 292 channels—dead thoughts.

Forgiveness (which this lesson promises will give us everything we want) is simply letting go of all dead thoughts (and that’s anything that’s not happening right this very now).

Today, I’m going to go outside, listen to the soundtrack of nature, check out the new episode playing every hour in my backyard.

I’m going to follow my mentors in the natural world who neither toil nor sow, neither worry nor fret.

Dead thoughts be gone.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.

I spent the weekend in Wakanda

“The universe looks less like a machine and more like one big thought.”—Sir James Jeans, astrophysicist
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So, I went to the 25th annual Kansas Storytelling Festival in Downs, Kansas (pop. 844) over the weekend.

Not only is Downs, Kansas a short six miles from the world’s largest ball of twine (yes, I took selfies), but it’s right next to Waconda Springs, a vortex of artesian water that the Pawnee considered sacred.

Before it got covered by the Glen Elder Reservoir, the water from the springs was bottled and sold across the country. It even won a medal at the 1905 St. Louis World’s Fair for its powerful medicinal properties.

Although the Kansas Waconda is spelled differently, I couldn’t help but think about Black Panther or refrain from shouting (at least in my mind) Wakanda Forever!!

In ACIM Lesson 120, I’m encouraged to rest in Wakanda Forever (did I forget to mention that the Pawnee claim the word means Great Spirit?) and to lay aside any idea that interferes with that truth.

Happiness, light, peace and all those attributes I desire flow in naturally when I quit investing in the alternate reality I made up.

Our faith in this alternate reality of limitation, sickness and gloom forces us to make adjustments in perception. We literally can’t see the real world because of all these perceptual adjustments we “make up” to justify our beliefs.

So today, I will rest. I will let go of my mad ideas and I will remember:

I am responsible for what I see.
I choose the feelings I experience, and I decide
upon the goal I would achieve.
And everything that seems to happen to me
I ask for, and receive as I have asked.

If you haven’t already, you can sign up here for the Hay House World Summit that starts in 4 days. It is completely free (I like that in a program) and has 100 amazing speakers including Deepak, Marianne and other one-name gurus.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.

On behalf of love

“Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world waits in darkness for the light that is you.”–L.R Knostonly-love-quotes-8

Car radios have buttons to pre-set favorite stations, making it easy to find, say KKFI and KPRS. Our minds work the same way. We program in certain “experiences” on our pre-set buttons and then we forget (or don’t allow) anything else.

I’ve talked a lot on this blog about the concept “God” being stuck on one of those pre-set buttons.

But if God is love and will is thought, then the real meaning of God’s will is thinking with love.

That’s what ACIM Lesson 115 asks us to do. To think with love. To do everything on behalf of love. Instead of thinking “What can I accomplish?” or “What can I manifest?” today, I ask only to accomplish and manifest on behalf of love.

Also want to mention that the Hay House World Summit (where I’ll be speaking) starts May 5. It’s completely free and if you sign up at this link, you can listen to more than 100 interviews with such amazing lights as Jack Canfield, Dr. Joe Dispenza, Deepak, Marianne Williamson, Matt Kahn, Suze Orman and many more.

Hope to see you there.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.

The material world: it’s a temp job

“Everything we call real is made of things that cannot be regarded as real.”—Niels Bohr
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Are you thinking about righting that over-turned apple cart I talked about yesterday?

Not so fast.

ACIM Lesson 114 continues to emphasize that what I think I see with my eyes is nothing but a made-up illusion.

What IS REAL is the fact that I am spirit.

The ONLY surety is that I am a multi-dimensional energy field upon which no body can impose limitations. Which means anything material I see out there is temporary, at best.

This is REALLY GOOD NEWS. Knowing this fact is invaluable when wanting to upgrade your life. Any issue or problem that seems to be starring in your life story can be easily changed. This is a statement worth repeating often.

The only reason that thing you’re not crazy about seems so stubborn (say lack of money or struggling relationships) is that you keep animating it into your life with your attention.

My possibility posse last week launched a commission to over-ride some of the belief systems that hold this crazy world in place. And first thing on the agenda is declaring all apparent problems to be temporary, ephemeral.

Acknowledging that any situation that doesn’t make us feel connected and in love and wanting to break out in dance(say the political situation or societal divisions) is far from written in stone.

Again, it only seems that it is because we keep staring at it, pointing at it, pronouncing it true. Woe is us!

It will only stay “true” as long as we continue to invest our energy into it.

As Buckminster Fuller so aptly said, we can’t change the existing reality by fighting. We can only change it by building a new model that makes the existing one obsolete.

And it all starts by knowing…’s not real. It’s temporary. It’s on the stage of my worldview because I put it there with my belief that it’s permanently etched on stone tablets.

So bloody reassuring to know that it’s not.

Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.