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We, the greatest of all creators, with capabilities to build cities and inspire nations, are squandering our time watching reruns of I Love Lucy. We have forgotten that whole galaxies exist within our grasp. –PG

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Pamela Sue Grout

Fill the world with gladness

“Writing down one thing you are grateful for each day is the cheapest possible therapy ever.”–Kevin Kelly

With all the world’s seeming issues, it can be hard to decide what to take on first. Should I contribute to the food bank? Should I march for peace?

It seems to me that the above headline, about filling the world with gladness is about as good a place to start as any.

Can you imagine if every person on the planet was filled with wonder, with gratitude? If every person spent their time noticing the extravaganza of trees and birdsong and stars that are available free of charge at every moment of every day?

I even wondered at yesterday’s possibility posse, when discussing strategies for getting kids to do chores, “what if parents modeled loving gladness when doing THEIR chores?” It’s only a learned cultural program that some things are fun to do and others aren’t. It’s us who give cues on how to react to things, how to “do life.”

Today’s Course lesson promises that every time we channel Elvis and say, “Thank you. Thank you very much,” it multiplies. It’s given back to us, it says, a thousand times and then a hundred thousand times more. Talk about compound interest.

Nature photographer Camille Seaman, who gained notoriety in 2003 for her photographs of the Arctic Ocean, said while watching the news after 9/11, “Where are the stories about how beautiful this life is?”

Her grandfather, a native Shinnecock, made her and her cousins sit outside every day for at least an hour. He’d ask, “What did you learn?” He’d point at clouds and say, “See that cloud up there? It’s made of your perspiration. And some day it will water this garden.” His great wisdom started her on the road of recognizing how connected we all are—not only to each other, but to clouds and water and the whole circle of life.

But the story that really got to me was when she was learning to surf. A friend took her out into the ocean, gave her a couple instructions and then abandoned her. Or that’s what she thought. She swam back to shore, livid that he would leave her in danger like that. And he told her something she never forgot. “It is only you who can learn to manage your fear.”

So she went back out on that surfboard and every time a fear would rear it’s ugly head, she asked this all-important question. “But is it happening now?”

She’d think, I could be gobbled up by a shark. And then ask herself, “But is it happening now?” And then a thought like, “I could get pulled under by a tidal wave” or “This heavy board could knock me unconscious.” And again she’d ask, “But is it happening now?”

It’s such a profound question and the perfect way to discover that, right now, in this moment gladness is here, waiting for me to notice, waiting for me to use its profound power to fill the world. #222 Forever

And FYI, here’s my latest podcast interview

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

No effort, no thought, no will

“Why are we not always and forever, in every moment, overwhelmed by the miracle of the world?—Jeff Vandermeer

On my metaphorical vision board, I have four intentions, all of which came straight from the pages of A Course in Miracles.

I’ve shared them before, but since my squirrely mind can always use a refresher, I’ll list them again:

*Peace of mind

*Surety of purpose

*Clear, unmistakable guidance

*Unceasing joy

As you can imagine, that last intention took a rather startling hit when my gorgeous, brilliant, perfect daughter died suddenly of a cerebral aneurysm. Sometimes, I still can’t believe it.

But what I’ve come to realize (and there ARE certain advantages to having a spiritual correspondent on what’s mistakenly called “the other side”) is that the only thing that ever causes suffering is a belief in separation and limits. When I recognize that the very essence of Taz, me and everyone that’s currently starring in a body is an invisible consciousness that never ceases to be, it’s a lot easier to follow along with the Course lessons which today happens to be: God’s will for me is perfect happiness.

I know. It’s probably the most confrontational of all the Course’s promises.

But over and over again, I get confirmation that eternal connection, love and joy are bottom line truth including tonight’s super moon that happens to be pink and happens to be exactly 222 thousand miles from earth. It peaks tonight at 10:33 my time and you better believe, I’ll be out communing with it, dancing to it and celebrating the fact that happiness, peace, purpose and guidance are not achieved by effort or thought or will. They just are. All of us already have all these attributes.

Our minds like to dispute this fact, to continually try to “make things better.” But when we rest in full moons, eternal truth and perfect happiness, we come to realize that nothing needs to be done, nothing is out of place. All is well, awaiting our recognition. #222 Forever  

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

The wisdom of woo-woo

“I am what I pay attention to. I literally surrender my life force to it.”—Becca Brewer

In the corner of my living room sits a small black rock given to me by a bare-chested medicine man from the Cook Islands.

“Pa,” as he is known, plucked it out of a jungle river in the South Pacific Island, handed it to me and said, “Put this in the north corner of your living room and you’ll become a millionaire.”

I drink water from a blue glass bottle that I set outside in the sun to purify. This suggestion comes from Dr. Hew Len (the ho’oponono guy) who says “blue solar water” removes recurring and no-longer useful data running in my subconscious.

And I believe that every single hedgehog that shows up on the first of every month is sent to me by my precious Taz.

Admittedly, these techniques are rather unorthodox, definitely not something my accountant or my doctor would prescribe.

I follow them because I happen to know that reality is fluid and that wherever I put my mind, my finances, my body and my life will follow.

Beliefs and expectations are SO powerful that placebos (fake treatments like sugar pills, saline injections, and sham surgery) cause bald men to grow hair, high blood pressure to drop, ulcers to heal, dopamine levels to increase and even tumors to shrink. And although pharmaceutical companies would rather keep this on the down low, placebos relieve symptoms on par with real medication. Actual biochemical changes in the body make you wonder–—or it should—how “factual” facts really are?

So, yes, there are people who call me crazy, think I’m too woo-woo for drinking blue solar water and placing exotic black rocks in my home. But I don’t care.  I’m rather proud that I use the luminous superpower of my thoughts and beliefs to imagine, expand and create.

And while the verdict’s still out on the blue water (I DO notice I’m less and less interested in all sorts of cultural expectations), Pa’s rock, which I carried home in my suitcase, was added to my living room just a few months before E-Squared hit No#1`on the New York Times bestseller list, right before it was translated into some 40 languages.

I was visiting the Cook Islands for this travel assignment.

As Harvard researcher, Ellen Langer likes to say, “It is not our physical state that limits us. It is our mind-set about our own limits, our perceptions that draws the lines in the sand.” #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

Practicing alchemy, spreading light

“Come to God dressed for dancing.”–Rumi

There’s a line in the movie The Ten Commandments where Moses asks to be forgiven for his weak use of “God’s great power.”

I can relate. I have the means (as do you and all humans) to heal, to spread love, to literally command matter and what do I so often do? I stare at what appears to be.

What appears to be is a big fat illusion, showing the content of my egoic mind, covering up the Truth that joy is my ultimate nature and that everything is working out perfectly.

Right now, without taking another class or reading another book or doing anything but removing the blinders, I can rest unshaken by the world’s appearance.

There is no suffering this power cannot heal, no illusion that will not return to truth once I let go and chill. Today’s Course lesson says this is a day of infinite peace.

Furthermore, (and I love this part) every time I stop and repeat my Course lesson (I rest in the timelessness of truth), a thousand of my brothers (and sisters) all across the globe will also come to realize there’s no reason for anxiety or pain or fear of the future.

So today, I sink into stillness and remember the only two things I ever need to know: The universe has my back and everything is going to be okay. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

The Dude still abides

‘Belief is a bit like gravity. Enough people believe a thing and it become as solid and real as the ground beneath your feet.”—V.E. Schwab

Happy Monday, my fellow gatherings of stardust. Today’s Course lesson is one of the countless reminders that “I am still as the dude created me.”

What that means is that the face, the skin and the eyes I see in the mirror are not really me. The Dude-ish (I love inventing words) part of me is infinite and formless, not limited in any way by time/space reality.

Hard to believe, but everything we think we see is a construction of the brain, a perceptual hack that hides the complexity of reality.

It’s almost like we put on a virtual reality headset, never suspecting there’s something bigger and cooler and more beautiful going on.

The Course says it’s our grievances (all those “I don’t want this.” “I don’t like this.” “This needs to change.”) that provide the interface we use to navigate the world. Doesn’t mean miracles aren’t happening. Doesn’t mean love and joy and peace are missing. It only means our VR headset is obscuring the light.

The Course helps us find a different map of reality, a completely new reference point.

Also want to show you the cute little hearts I’ve been leaving around town. These were sent to me by Kimmy Rhoads who started the 222 Random Acts of Money project. My favorite touch is the $2 bills in the center and the words “You are loved. You are beautiful. And you will do remarkable things.” Have a great week. #222 Forever!

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

Guided by the light of the Milky Way

“What you think you are is a belief to be undone.”—Course in Miracles

Computers and phones have what’s called a cache that stores data, making it easy and efficient to retrieve files you frequently use. But when your cache gets full, it slows down processing speeds, takes up precious gigabytes and makes it harder to find new answers or websites or whatever it is you use your computer for.

When you clear the cache in your browser, deleting no-longer needed files, you’re open to new possibilities.  

At last week’s possibility posse, we talked about this very thing. Carla sent a video of Dr. Hew Len talking about the ancient Hawaiian art of ho’oponopono that as he said, “cleans our mind.” We had a great time talking about “clearing the data” in our brain, about deleting the stuck places that continue to play out in our lives.  

If you look at a two- or three-year-old, you notice they’re alive in every part of their body. But as we get older, our heads are about the only thing still alive. I heard Elizabeth Gilbert describe our bodies being mainly carrying devices for our brain jars. And sadly, most of our brain jars are filled to the brim with a cache of habits, beliefs and grievances. That’s why the Course in Miracles tells us to let it all go, every single piece of data from the past.

So today, I delete no-longer needed programs. I clear my cache, remove old cookies (packets of data, also stored on computers) and recognize that this is a day that has never been before, that will never be again and that, when I clear my old cache, absolutely anything could happen. #222Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

When I grow up, all I want to be is a little girl

“I do believe more than ever that there is a vast area of our own lives that we know nothing about.”—Anthony Hopkins

So the headline for this post comes from the great Sir Anthony Hopkins, only in his version, he longs to be a little boy. He even carries a photo of his four-year-old self on his phone that he often looks at and says, “We did good, kid. We did good.”

As you may have heard, the 83-year-old actor was recently nominated for an Oscar (again!!!) for his role in The Father. I was intrigued after reading an article in the New Yorker where he mentioned, after being asked about memorizing so many lines, that he tells himself “I’ve got a perfect memory.”

He said it’s a form of self-hypnosis and that he’s very careful what he says about himself.

Hopkins is a long-time devotee of what he calls intentionality. That’s why he repeats an affirmation every morning: “I am alive. I am well. I am filled with perfect and abundant life.”

“We are the direct products of everything we’ve ever thought,” says the Academy Award winner. “Even the most insignificant thought can change your life. For better or worse.  In whatever field — business, acting whatever — it’s all about what you dream.”

He believes in acting as if it is impossible to fail –whether he’s painting (he describes himself as a painting fiend), composing (his orchestral works have been performed in Moscow and London) or playing Hannibal Lecter, Richard Nixon or King Lear.

“Absolutely anything is possible,” he claims. “I don’t know why we say no so much.”  

What he does know is that human existence is mysterious, unknowable and far beyond understanding. Whether you believe in God or you are an atheist, he says, life is beyond explanation.

“I’m not clever enough to have designed this life. There has to be something bigger going on,” he says. “The only reason we don’t see God is because we’re always looking for him. God is in everything and we are all connected and while it’s all a dream within a dream, I am compelled to say to whoever is running the show, thank you very much.”

I have to agree, Sir Anthony. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

Rearranging the furniture in my mind

If you’re going to keep your sanity, the only choice is spirit.”—Americ Azevedo  

First, let me offer a huge shoutout to all of you. Not only did you pray for me (thank you so much), but you also generously and tactfully reminded me of my own advice. Someone suggested I re-read “That time I failed to take the red pill” from Lesson 110 in my book, The Course in Miracles Experiment. Others sent quotes from my other books.

Like Taz, who would sometimes call me out with, “Mom, do you really want to put that out there in the universe?” you helped me “turn the other cheek” which simply means choosing to move in a different direction.

I, of all people, should know that I literally surrender my life force to whatever I put my attention upon. So big hefty thanks all around!  

Perhaps my best realization is remembering, like the Course says, that what I see ”out there” is not the deepest reality. My wonky interpretation of life is hardly some great ultimate truth. Something far greater and vast than my squirrely mind gives form and meaning to my existence.   And the best part is it continues to work behind the scenes even when I choose not to be aware of it.

Right next to the track of my egoic mind that relentlessly goes over the same tired terrain is this other track, this incredible beauty/light/love track that moves below the level of thought.

Taz reminded me this morning of a book I read many years ago by Natalie Sudman. While working as an archaeologist in Iraq, Natalie was blown up by a roadside bomb. She had a near-death experience that completely upturned her life. The part Taz reminded me of was Natalie’s comedy sketch with her spirit guides. I say comedy sketch because, as they (the spirit guides and Natalie) worked together to repair her severe injuries and plot her next mission here on earth, they began one-upping each other with wild scenarios of possibilities. “What if you came back as paraplegic?” and then they’d all laugh uproariously or “What if you had no money for this next stage of your life?” again gleefully guffawing at all these crazy life experiences that are all available in the deck of cards.

I know this sounds rather cheeky, but Taz knew it was just what I needed to hear. She also reminded me of the movie, Stripes. Remember Francis, the surly, intense recruit who stood up during boot camp to announce that while his name was Francis Sawyer, everybody should call him Psycho? Furthermore, he warned, if anyone dare call me Francis, “I’ll kill ya.”

At that point, Army Sergeant Hulka jumps in with this now-famous line: “Lighten up, Francis!”

So thanks again to everyone who helped pick me up, dust me off and steer me back to the place within myself that is not subject to harm, change or even death.

I’ll probably forget again, but thank ya, Jesus, I have lots of tools and lots of beautiful tender friends who, like me, are just trying to find their way back home. #222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

A piece of good fortune in this glorious affair

“I hate it when I gain 20 pounds for a role and then remember I’m not an actor.”—Stevie Oakley

Hello, friends! I haven’t written in a while because, well, I’ve been in hiding, hiding the fact that I’m not exactly feeling “amazingly awesome” right now. That’s not a comfortable admission for a writer who has staked her career on spreading hope and joy.

Everything feels like a bit “too much.” Too much isolation. Too much loss. Too much division. Too much white supremacy.

But amidst it all, I found a note from Taz, a note she had written to her gloves. On one side, she had written the words with which I titled this post: “A piece of good fortune in this glorious affair.” On the back, she wrote a thank you note to her gloves for keeping her hands warm with a reminder that no matter how long it seems, spring will someday come.

I’ve also encountered many other pieces of good fortune during this dark period including a new friend who created the most beautiful quilt from Taz’s t-shirts. I’ve encountered inspiring books, received notes from readers (one even included a mini beach ball, folded into the envelope) and glorious invitations, one of which I share below. My amazing partner of 18 years fixes me dinner almost every night. We’ve discovered countless new trails and parks.

The quilt of many t-shirts!

And miracles, despite my weakened propensity to notice them right now, continue to show up. In a phone call with Hitaji Aziz, one of the recipients of this year’s 222 Foundation awards, I was reminded of the Course lesson “To give and receive are one in truth.” We were talking about her incredible work, about the best way to send the grant money. It was basically a business phone call. She stopped for a minute and asked, “What’s going on with your psoas muscle? I see bright red in that area.” Even though she was 700 miles away, she could clearly “see” the issues going on in my hip. She generously sent me a video and a meditation and a referral for a different kind of hip surgery. It was remarkable to me and a potent reminder that when you let God have the floor (which she did), miracles can be more readily orchestrated. Thank you once again, Hitaji!

I also want to let you know that I was invited to join Deepak Chopra, Gregg Braden, Rupert Sheldrake, Sue Morter and two dozen other scientists, healers, physicians and researchers for the FREE Science of Healing Summit that starts next week. You can listen to me and all 35 speakers by RSVP’ing at this link.

Did I mention it’s FREE?

As Taz (and the crocuses erupting in my front yard) remind me, spring is coming. #222 Forever!

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)

Happy 2/22: Traveling through reality in a whole new way

The giver never goes without.”—Kat Dawes, the Now Ninja

I am so excited. It’s 2/22, the day when Taz and I officially announce this year’s recipients of the Taz Grout 222 Foundation awards.

As usual, I had many, many stellar applications. Seriously, there were so many fabulous ideas for rising above, for coming alive, for changing consciousness which, in the end, is the only way to become bigger than the problems.

When we put our attention on the light, become a conduit for higher level communication, real change starts to happen.

I’ll be telling you more about these projects down the road, but for today — because I’m heading out to perform 222 good deeds with Taz’s godmother— here’s just a quick thumbnail:

  1. Peacemaker Enterprise. You know that line in the American pledge of allegiance about being one nation under God, about being indivisible, about embracing truth and justice for all?  Well, Hitaji Aziz has devoted her life to that beautiful aspiration. Like all of us, she has seen the injustice inflicted on people of color – but she keeps getting back up, keeps holding on to a higher truth. Not only has she been a vocal proponent in the Black Lives Matter movement, but she offers free meditation classes, reiki and green living to the prison population. When she was 13, she came to the realization that she could actually do something about institutional belief systems that have pressed boots against the necks of black people for centuries. As she says, we can’t fix what we don’t face. The 222 Foundation is very honored to help Hitaji in her continuing quest for racial equality.
  2. Dancing Classrooms. Some of you might have seen my article about the Conway, Arkansas principal who dances each morning with his students.  As he said, when learning seems like a party, kids are pumped and excited about coming to school. Dancing Classrooms offers free 10-week, 20-session dance classes for fifth and eighth graders that center around making connections, celebrating cultures and breaking down barriers. During the pandemic, they’ve taught BREAK Dancing to re-energize students studying on Zoom.  I’ve seen many of their videos and wow!
  3. Taz’s Hot Dirt. They had me at the name. Taz’s Hot Dirt is a regenerative agriculture project in Toronto, Canada. Land is being reforested and several acres are devoted to growing organic fruits and veggies that are then distributed to seniors who are nourished with fresh produce AND regular visits. The project was conceived by the incomparable Dawn Joy Wightman who is a master gardener, actress, creator of plays and fairy novels.

Again, stay tuned. I will have more to report about all these projects soon, but for now, have a beautiful February 22 (2/22).

#222 Forever

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World) that has just been turned into an app. Badass ACIM (badass-acim.com)