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Standing on the corner of awesome and bomdiggity

“We have great opportunities to see great beauty every single day.”—Rick Rubin

Here’s Taz, her cousin Zach and me some 25 years ago.

True confession: I recently fell off the wagon of awesome and bomdiggity. A recent family tragedy slipped me an unexpected mickey.

Normally, my spiritual practice involves overlooking false realities such as fear, misery and disconnection. I don’t give much attention to the commentary, judgement and mental bluster my thoughts sometimes churn up.

But the death of a young, vital cousin of Taz’s threw me off my game.

For the most part, I don’t believe in death. I feel every bit as connected to my daughter as I ever did. Our love and deep bond is indestructible.

But it doesn’t make the physical loss of our beloveds any less jarring. And that sneaky asshat never ceases looking for opportunities to throw in its two-cents. ‘Life sucks,’ might have been one of its recent protestations. I might have even failed to send gratitudes to my posse for a day or two and/or ignore my daily Course practice.

Thankfully, life itself—its real dynamism, its budding trees, its stunning avian orchestra—continues to show off and show up for me, continues to point out that life never ends, and that except for my misguided thoughts and beliefs, it definitely DOES NOT suck. I recently read and related to a statement about “being a willing accomplice to the scandal of another spring.”

I am so grateful that life (and my ACIM practice) persists in reminding me of what’s true behind appearances, that it instructs me to continue counting my blessings and choosing to put my attention on beauty. And to always–no matter what–make room within myself for life’s unending immensity.

When I’m open to other dimensions — higher dimensions than ones we habitually focus upon — material appearances lose their hold. When I train my attention on possibility and collaborate, instead of arguing with reality, miracles continue to find me.  And I return to the peace of my true nature.

Love you all.

#222 Forever!

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World)

69 Responses

  1. It is rough and I send you thoughts, love, and the same remembrance you give your readers so unfailingly. Here we can do the same for you this time, Pam.

  2. So sorry for your loss. Thank you always of the reminder of the positive and the beauty that surrounds and uplifts us all❤️.

    1. Hugs my friend ❤️ thank you for sharing about the loss, and also about the blossoms and avian symphony. Always reminding us that life *is* good, very good, and great. Much love 🤗 xo

  3. Much love Pam! So sorry for you loss. Thank you for being so candid about the fact that even someone as awesomely positive as you can have a moment… or a slip! Thank you for the continued reminders that life in fact “doesn’t suck”. 💗

  4. Pam I am so so sorry for your loss . May their spirit and yours be at peace and all surrounded by love. I am sure Taz has greeted him and continues to help navigate the spirit world. I appreciate you for sharing your humanness with all of us and the courage to notice the sly and insidious asshat thoughts that slip thru during our moments of humanness! Much love and kindness your way.

    1. Yes, that asshat is a crafty mother–knows just when to strike. And, yes, Taz has already sent some assurances to both me and my sister.

  5. Wrapping you in light and comfort – I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you sharing your navigation through this difficult time – it is nothing less than inspiring – as you always are. Sending a warm hug and love your way. <3

  6. God bless Taz! God bless Zach! God bless you! And God bless all of your loved ones!
    Look at the three precious beings in this photo. How wonderful to see their love.
    I love love love love love this photo!!! A hundred things about it!

    It’s okay to feel whatever you feel!

  7. All my love, we’re human, we came here to feel all the feels, no matter how devastating. It’s the truth that brings us back to center. It’s the truth that transmutes the grief into gratitude. The grief tree connecting all the grief we have ever felt no matter how big or small. Elizabeth Gilbert reminds us the waves come and we can drown in them for a while, Dr Joe Dispenza asks, it’s okay to react, to feel, but for how long do we stay under. The truth brings us back to center. You are beautiful, powerful, a light for us all 🙏

  8. You wouldn’t be human if you didn’t hurt. You are a rare, and brutally honest being Pam. Sorry it was time for Tazs’ cousin to leave this realm. {{HedgeHugs}}

  9. Pam!
    All I can say is “ditto” to all the wonderful and thoughtful things already expressed in these comments.
    Much love to you and to your angels,
    xox
    Pamela Joy

  10. It occurred to me as I struggled recently with a bout of doubt that Jesus did as well. We aren’t “all that” all the time, but we are all that more of the time. If he could falter, I know it’s part of the earth package deal. You, Pam Grout, are all the more precious to us other earthlings by your authenticity. My Easter hat is off to you!

  11. Sending biggest hugs and heaps of love to you and your family dear Pam. ❤️‍🩹🧡💝 Losing a loved one when they’re young is a really hard loss, even when you know the truth – that who they are never dies. And as you say, just because you know they’re still alive in a different dimension doesn’t make the physical loss of their presence any less of a painful shock. May you and your sister, and all your loved ones, hold each other through this time of grief, and may you feel the love from all your readers and supporters across the world who are thinking of you right now. Thank you for sharing your loss with us so that we can send our love, thoughts and prayers to you dear Pam. You mean so much to us all. More big hugs from me to you from the other side of our world. 🩵🌹🌏🌺🦋

  12. Thank you for your honesty and relatable energy. Our heart has such a beautiful spectrum of colors and emotions. You loved deeply and completely…so now you greave the same way. I lost a good friend to suicide last year. The grief was overwhelming….but as time passed my grief slowly turned to gratitude. I still miss him deeply but now my memories of him spark laughter and joy…remembering what a force of life he was when he was here, and ending every memory with Thank you Universe for the gift of having known and loved him. Priceless 🌈.

  13. Pam, I am so sorry to hear about the death of your precious Zach. You and your sister are in my thoughts and prayers. Thank God for your connection with Taz and I am so inspired by it. (Btw, I’m on episode 9 of The Telepathy Tapes”!!!)
    And here’s something that really spoke to me from Lesson 109 of ACIM….hope it is a comfort to you.
    “ A tired mind is suddenly made glad, a bird with broken wings begins to sing, a stream long dry begins to flow again”
    Love you, Pam ❤️

  14. Love this so much “And to always–no matter what–make room within myself for life’s unending immensity.”

    The next time someone asks me how I’m doing, I’m going to tell them I am making “room within myself for life’s unending immensity” 💕
    Thank you, and hugs. ~ Bronte

  15. Hmmmmm, maybe it’s not as much about overlooking false realities and more about looking right at them and being unswayed… dancing around this stuff sure is an education, isn’t it?. Thanks for always sharing your authentic journey with such grace and insight! xoxo

  16. You are a light and guiding post. Thank you for sharing your journey, thoughts and experiences, they have helped me tremendously in navigating life’s challenges and conundrums. Sending all the love to you and your family. 💕

  17. “As we agreed”. That’s what i heard this morning. There are no mistakes. There are no accidents. There are no coincidences. Everything as we agreed, before we came here to this planet. Assigned contracts. Assignments. To have experiences. To have lessons. To have feelings. Feelings, emotions, energy in motion. Thats why we came. To feel and to transcend. And the team on the other side is actually more real than the one on this side. As you already know. The whole team. Thank you to Zach, Thank you to Taz, Thank you to all. Hedgehogs a symbol of this truth, of which Taz is. Thank you Pam, love you so much, your sharing is everything 🩷🦔 #Hedgehogsforever

  18. We are with you, Pam. And we unite with you to see the truth beyond de illusions. Only Love is real. Love you, my friend. 😇🙏✨️💛

  19. I’m sorry for the loss of Zach here on earth. Let’s see him and Taz connecting in the world of spirit🩷. A warm hug to you Pam💫

  20. So sorry for your earthly loss, it’s never easy to process that sudden void. So glad you have such deep knowing that this is a temporary ‘separation’ and that our loved ones are never gone. Sending love and hugs.

  21. Blessings to you, Pam it’s so amazing how death grabs us taking our full attention and then dumping us in the pain and loss. The only way I see to make it easier as if you have a little for warning time, but that’s not always the case. I have had both experiences in my life so I know just how you felt. Sending good vibrations your way and may we all be in the now enjoying the beauty that is here this moment.

  22. So very sorry for your loss, Pam. In spite of it all, it’s nice to know that you’re human like me. I have put you on a pedestal and am always jealous of how happy you seem no matter what happens on this earthly pane.
    Thank you for your honesty and inspiring books. Love and hugs to you and your family. Maryellen

  23. Please accept my sincere condolences. I offer a platitude I use myself: You won’t get over it, you’ll get used to it.

  24. Dear Pam, my heart goes out to you and your family 🖤
    Sending you all my love from Germany and many 🦔🦔🦔

  25. We never loose anyone. The feelings we feel when events like this take place are borne out of our lack of understanding as to why others make the decisions they do. The greatest thing the course has taught me is that it’s not important to understand why others choose what they choose. We are all free to choose for ourselves. Some may say well life is just happening, and they didn’t choose. To those who feel that way I would simply suggest they start choosing, if they so desire to.

  26. It is so comforting to remember that ‘death’ is only an appearance and that the feeling of ‘separation’ is just a mental/emotional construct and not the ‘truth.’ Thank you for your faithfulness in leading us back to the truth, again and again. You are a true blessing.

  27. Sending so much Love to you and your sister. These bodies look so real and so it’s easy to forget how precious and temporary the meat suit carrying around our awesome Spirits are. Your writings and take on the course lift me up. ALL. THE. TIME. This being human is messy, but you are not alone. The Light will carry you through. HUGE HUGS and blessings to all right now. And now. And oh, NOW! Go easy in the days ahead.

  28. Sending you and your sister oodles of love. We know those that transition are still here but sure miss the physical touch.

  29. Thanks, Pam–for your honesty, vulnerability, gratitude–reminders! I loved: “When I train my attention on possibility and collaborate, instead of arguing with reality, miracles continue to find me. And I return to the peace of my true nature.” YES YES YES!!!

  30. In addition to the smiles and the love in that photo – I see a beautiful plant reaching for the sun 🌞 Thank you Pam. Sending so much love your way 🙏💙

  31. Holding you, your sister and everyone touched by his move to the world of infinite in loving light 💖

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