Before the jello sets

“It doesn’t matter that it doesn’t make sense. Sense is old news.”—Oliver Tompkins Ray

So there’s one more thing I failed to mention about my new “practice.”

It must be the very first thing I do. Before my old identity has time to click into place.

Every morning when we wake up, there’s a moment or two when we literally re-assemble ourselves, when we remember pieces of the identity we have taken on.

“Oh, yes,’ my mind reminds me. “Your name is Pam. You have a daughter named Taz. You live in Lawrence.” And on and on.

These identities are what the Course in Miracles calls “the past.” When it says, we see only the past, it means that over and over we take on the same old stories from yesterday.

It’s handy, of course, to have a name, a certain character you can play. But there’s a whole lot of “new” that’s available every morning. And that’s what I’m finding when I ask the mystery to point me in the right direction.

Rather than gather up all the components of my old identity that tends to come with a lot of grievances, problems, responsibilities. I wake with a sense of curiosity. What new idea is going to emerge today? What new possibility awaits?

It feels a little like plugging in to a higher truth. All I know for sure is it will never be found in the assembly of my old beliefs and identities. Those stories just keep me—and the world I see—stuck in separation, in scarcity.

The old identities and beliefs do nothing but clog up the pipes. They keep me from seeing the aliveness and beauty that exists in every moment.

As much as all the kings horses and all the kings men try to put Pampty Dumpty together again, I am happy for my practice that allows me to stay open, free and eager to receive life’s immeasurable gifts.  

#222 Forever!

Pam Grout is the author of 20 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her latest book, The Course in Miracles Experiment: A Starter Kit for Rewiring Your Mind (And Therefore Your World)