“Be quiet, still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.”—Franz Kafka
When I was growing up, television programming ended at midnight. The National Anthem was played and then a black and white test pattern popped up until programming resumed the next morning.
Today, of course, there’s not a minute when the airwaves aren’t broadcasting. Never stops. Never ends.
The same can be said about Source. There’s never a lapse. The Divine Buzz never ceases transmitting guidance, blessings, signs and miracles.
I, on the other hand, frequently tune into a different channel. Let’s just call it the grievance channel, the channel where something is not quite right.
That’s why in ACIM Lesson 84 (and over and over throughout this Course), I’m reminded that my true identity is love and that any grievance, any tiny little complaint, any mad idea that something is wrong brings up the black and white test pattern.
Only instead of RCA that created the original test pattern, we each make up a test pattern of grievances to air on our personal screen. And then we continue to watch the damned thing over and over again.
These grievances that obscure the Divine Buzz are often subtle, so subtle we don’t even recognize we’re running them. That’s why I always ask for help, why I turn my day over to the Holy S who knows how to create extraordinarily epic.
Today, I commit to let go of my grievance-ridden test pattern. I claim my true identity as Love so I can broadcast Source’s channel of luminosity, beauty and never-ending joy.
Pam Grout is the author of 19 books including E-Squared, E-Cubed, Thank & Grow Rich and her new book, Art & Soul,Reloaded: A Year-Long Apprenticeship to Summon the Muses and Ignite Your Daring, Audacious, Creative Side.